Dear katey, Thank you so much for your words of encouragement, I really appreciate your help.
This is my 2nd day having anxiety attack in a long time so that's probably why I'm having all these irrational thoughts and fears. Words of encouragement don't help me as much as it used to at the moment, but I know I will eventually get over it. I hope I will. I just hate these thoughts. If only I can get rid of the negative, hopeless, and pessimistic thoughts, then I guess I would live just fine. I just can't handle them. I could handle the physical symptoms more than I could handle the mental symptoms. It drives me crazy. It also makes me more anxious thinking that I'm losing control of myself, that I'm losing my sanity. It freaks me out more and it makes more very anxious. It's shinny outside and the weather is amazing, but I'm stuck here in my house fearing of the incoming attacks. I don't want to live like this and I do want to seek help.
Is having irrational fear and thoughts normal when a person is going through a panic/anxiety attack? I feel like there's nothing I can do to recover from this panic disorder and that I will be stuck like this for the rest of my life. Is it normal to feel like that? I used to feel like that when I first had my panic attack and I've been panic free for about a year and a half and it just came back to me last night, and it still lasts until now. This time it's worse because my way of thinking now is : "Oh my god, panic has come back to my life. I thought I was free from it.. I guess I really am cursed with this for the rest of my life.." I feel like crying and crying.. I feel like I want to be someone else..
I'm only 18 years old and I can't imagine how my life will be .. I'm so desperate and depressed. Please, I know this is the internet, but please show some compassion to me. Tell me the truth, is there help at all or can it be treated at all? If not, I guess I'm just going to do the unthinkable.. I cannot stand this any longer. (I've only had this for one night and this is how I'm feeling right now..but that's because I am feeling SO hopeless and my low self esteem is no help either).View Thread