If someone has heard your history and tells you to just get over it, they are being insensitive and hurtful.
Hope is not lost. You aren't alone in your struggle. You can learn coping strategies, ways of responding to stress better, and make things easier for yourself. But that isn't a quick fix! It's a skill, so you need someone (a book, a friend, a therapist) to teach it to you. Sometimes the people who seem the strongest, have the toughest struggles. Eventually you will find a way out, you will learn how to make the past let go of you.
Paranoia is a really common side effect with marajuana and you smoked a lot of it. It sounds like you were sensitive to it, too. Who knows if it was laced with something, as well? That could also have an effect. That statement isn't to scare you. It's just to let you know that these problems might be because of the chemical you put in your body. Depending on the type of marajuana you use, it can be quite strong and take a while to leave your body. A whole joint is quite a bit, again depending on the strength. If it had something extra in it, that could cause a whole host of problems... but the important thing to remember is, it's probably not permanent.
A final word of advice: if you are feeling paranoid, it may not be a good idea to look up symptoms of illnesses, because your mind will often present them to you whether you have them or not.
It would probably be a better idea to look at websites for managing anxiety, and trust your medical providers. I hope you feel better soon.View Thread
One of the reasons why I thought about anorexia (and this may not fit you) is because a common theme with sufferers of this disease is the idea that they are fat, when they aren't really. They will see themselves and think "fat" when all the data in front of them points to slim or normal. Best of luck finding your answer!View Thread
I wish I would have worked for a year instead of staying in school. It would have given me some great perspective. Have you talked to your mom about her pushing you like this? She may be doing it out of love but it sounds like it's giving you a lot more stress than you need.View Thread
One thing I've learned is when you have anxiety, it doesn't matter what the subject is. The anxiety disorder will grab ahold of anything you care about and use that. Check out Dr. WIlson's various posts, he has a website also at anxieties.com, and that has quite a few resources for helping yourself deal with anxiety. I wish you the best!View Thread
That very well may be. A mental health professional might give you better advice, or resources to help her when she decides she wants it. But no one can do her work for her, she has to want to heal herself before anything can happen. Sometimes I wish there was a "scared straight" program for adults. So she could see what it is really like when she reaches the end of this road she is going down. Does she really want to lose everything she loves and values? Probably not, but it's plain she doesn't see that as an eventuality. I hope you find some way to get through to her.View Thread
I'm hoping Dr. Wilson will weigh in on this one, though I want to hear from anyone who is interested.
I have a lot of problems with various kinds of anxiety, I am phobic, and I find that every year I discover new things I am nervous about. Previously I dealt with the fears one by one, trying to habituate myself to each stimulus, and it didn't work very well.
Then I thought about it, and I think I know the real problem... I don't deal with the sensation of fear very well. For me, fear isn't just a warning but an absolute barrier that blocks me from all kinds of things, and I convince myself I don't want to do them because it's easier to cut myself out of fun than it is to overcome that huge, insurmountable barrier guarded by figurative burning gasoline and water lizards. I would do almost anything to avoid even confronting fear.
I would like to learn to deal with fear sensations themselves so they didn't completely control me. But all the articles I read focus on the subject of the fear, not dealing with the sensations that the stimulus causes. That, to me, actually reinforces the problem because it doesn't teach me how to deal with the fear sensations! Dr. Wilson addresses something similar to this in his advice of how to deal with anxiety. That's different from what I've encountered in the past, and I think it might hold the key. So I wanted people's thoughts on this.
So, my main question is, can we get used to the fear sensations, at least enough so we can see past the adrenaline dump and everything else, and make a conscious decision of whether to do the activity (or whatever) or not? People do, because skydiving exists, but how to I do that too?View Thread
You are describing classic anxiety symptoms, I see people post here with these exact same symptoms all the time. Since the doctors have checked you over so thoroughly, and since Xanax helped you and that's a medicine used to treat anxiety, it makes sense that this would be anxiety.
I think some people get the idea that anxiety is no big deal, that if it's "all in your head" then the discomfort should be easy to shake off. But your brain is like the computer that controls your car! If there is something wrong with it, or how it is acting, then you can have very uncomfortable, hard to ignore, terrifying feelings!
Retranslate that, then, because that wasn't what I was saying. You made a choice, that choice was right for you. It wasn't a bad choice. You have a problem with how people are going to perceive your choice, however. If it's that big of a problem, don't go, and celebrate it in some other way. Then the only people who know about it will be those you have a chance to explain things to. Just don't miss out on something you will later wish you had gone to.View Thread
I think you are completely right. Only the best doctors seem to see the symptoms as a whole, and everything really can affect everything else. So if you feel like they all point to something, I think it makes complete sense to request a test. You know your body better than anyone else does, after all.View Thread