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I also realized for the first time that I have some type of disorder with the feedback in this world. When I took the step to work as hard as I could on my anxiety, I started to remember a HUGE PLETHORA of things that I had surpressed or I just disassociated for years of my life. Has anyone else had this type of problem ?
I already started shaking again, Gotta go
AllisonView Thread

My husband is a different person than the man I married, I guess living with a maniac will do that. Again, he controls all the money we have and he refuses to give me money. All the money is mine, from and insurance my father had, money my Mother gave me, my disability.
he is constantly looking over my shoulder if I'm on the computer, speaking on the phone, I just do not understand it, I have never looked at another man since we met.
Anyway, today we go do all the results from my bladder tests.View Thread

I liked the idea of living in Florida, we first went to Miami, I loved it, my husband HATED IT. We ended up living in a beautiful little town, went from the 6000 sq. ft home to a 1500 sq ft 1920's cottage. We have a pool, which I really enjoy but I have absolutely no friends. I adore my husband but I am not happy. He makes all kinds of promises on getting our house finished but never follows through. I feel that living in such an awful environment is what has caused me to emotionally just let myself go.
I grew up in a very prosperous family, with absolutely everything I ever wanted. If my parents ever saw this place, they would die. He also has taken my car to work because he totaled his, so I'm stuck here 24/7. More and more often I think about a seperation. I own the house outright, also my car.
You asked me about the Hospital here:
I was in the ER with a raging UTI and a guy came in to take blood, all of a sudden I saw a huge spurt of blood hit the ceiling,all over me, all over the bed. I looked over and there was a hypodermic in my arm. I said, where are the vacutainers ? He had no idea what I was talking about.
They refused to let me take my psych meds by myself, I take a lot of drugs, most of which their pharmacy did not have. I was so manic I yanked the BP cuff off and threw it.
4 nurses could not insert the IV, so I did it.
I had surgery for a rare condition called apendigitis, where a piece of the intestine breaks off and starts to strangle the colon. The nurses refused to clean me or give me things to do it myself. I fell when I got up because they would not help me.
I had to go to the ER for food poisoning, the doctor never looked at me, touched me. She strolled to the entrance of the room and said I had food poisoning but she was too busy to help me and walked away. I looked at the paper and WAS ECSTATIC TO SEE MY KIDNEY FUNCTION WAS AT 70%, IT
HAD NEVER GONE ABOVE 30% SINCE THE RENAL FAILURE FROM THE LITHIUM. I had an appointment with my Internist the next day, I handed him the paper and said LOOK.
He just threw his head back and said, these are not your results, unless you grew a prostate.
Needless to say I will be going to MD Anderson from now on.
I see you are from NJ, My parents live in Franklin Lakes.View Thread

Calls from my mother is guaranteed to get me anxious, however I
have learned behavior that has changed the combination of my buttons so it's better,much better.View Thread


THANKS
ALLISONView Thread

My Psychiatrist has a 5 year wait list, however we met when he was setting up his practice here instead of NYC.so not only are we Doctor/Patient we are also friends, as I've said before I'm a triple A personality and I do not like being told what to do. I told him everything about my personality. After you've lived in NYC, worked on Wall St you tend to give people the finger most of the time. I also have said in various posts that I was 1 or 2 the worst bipolar he had ever worked with.He also knows EXACTLY how to work with me. When I had the breakdown, they thought it was PTSD or such extreme anxiety I was literally falling apart.
I was ordered not to go out alone
I was ordered not to swim
and of course no driving. I had just, just gotten the sports car of my dreams. My keys were on the couch and he took them so I could just relax. I kept falling, I broke my elbow, wrist ankle, all right side ribs and my face was destroyed so, my husband took a leave of absence just to be here for me.
Lithium destroyed my thyroid and caused my kidney failure, I went for my levels the week before and they were 1.0 when I got to the ER they were 9 and to this day NO ONE HAS ANY IDEA WHAT HAPPENED, i STILL ONLY HAVE 30% KIDNEY FUNCTION.
Yes, I was in therapy until September when my therapist moved and there are no others here. However, I was in therapy for years, so I use the info I learned from that to help myself and I read everything, which is also helpful.
2011 was the worst year of my life, LET US HOPE FOR A GOOD ONE THIS TIME AROUND.
aLLISONView Thread

I have every single one of the disorders you are referring to. Every single one is related to the other. A very anxiety provoking event occurs which frightens you so badly that eventually you start to disassociate, I have a PhD in disassociating, I've been doing it since I was a small child. There is no zoo in the universe that can come close to my family.
I was so incredibly anxious I had a bleeding duodenal ulcer at 15.Dr. Farrell is helping me so much with my horrible anxiety. Awhile back I broke out from head to toe in quarter size round bleeding sores, I mean in my hair, between my toes, everywhere. I had a biopsy at MD Anderson Hospital which in my opinion is the best Hospital in the world. The results of the biopsy was extreme, extreme anxiety. If you want the Latin term, let me know.
You withdraw into yourself, I was in the house for almost a year and today I did my blood test and went to lunch which I refused to do for a year.
For the time being, just try to relax by doing things you like. I put a humming bird feeder outside my window and I watch them. Most of all and in my opinion is a key, stay away from all negative situations and people.
Keep in touch
Allison.View Thread

My Mom says I was very nervous as a child, yet from age 5, I rode in jumping competitions all over the world jumping 5 foot fences with no anxiety. At 15 I had a bleeding duodenal ulcer.which the doctor ignored.
Even though I 'm a MAJOR, MAJOR type A personality I never thought I was really anxious. I had a fabulous job, 167 IQ which allowed me to do what I love BOOKS< ALL BOOKS.
Almost all is gone now and I'm on disability.
AllisonView Thread
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