I'm an 18 year old female. I've always been in the wrong crowd of people. My whole life I've been in and out of therapy and psychiatrist's offices. I've been diagnosed with ADD, depression, bipolar disorder, and now boderline personality disorder. But all of the medications I've been prescribed to never seem to make much of a difference..I guess why I'm here is because I've been doing a lot of research on the way I feel and think. Boderline personality disorder seems to fit well but I'm wondering if it isn't anxiety as well? I had an incident about a year and a half ago, I was smoking herbal incense, what's now known as "spice". Immediately, my heart began to race and become out of sync. My whole left breast became tight and was almost completely pointed to the left. It scared me because I could feel my the the top and bottom sections of my heart beating in different time. It was extremely painful and left me with stretch marks across my breast.
Since then, and it's becoming more often, I've been getting what I think are panic attacks. It'll happen randomly where I feel, and there aren't better words to explain with, an intense amount of doom and fear, like I'm dying. I can't stress how intense and terrifying it is. I feel like it effects me on a day-to-day basis, it's changing my life. Everytime I feel my heart rhythm change, or if I begin to feel light-headed I'm terrified it's going to begin again. I constantly live in a state of fear where I look up heart and lung problems and truly believe I have serious disease. I don't know why I can't stop. What should I do? I'm scared, I feel like I'm too young to feel like I'm going to die everyday.View Thread