Today I am 26 Every morning I take 300mg of Effexor, 30mg of Adderall, and 200mg of Lamictal. In the past, I have forgotten to take my Effexor for a day or 2. My withdrawals were horrific. They would start mid-afternoon, and increase in pain until I took my dose. I felt like I had the flu. My head would feel heavy, my vision was distorted, I would be achy and bedridden. I would cry, uncontrollably for NO REASON. I was dizzy and it hurt to think.
I am scared.I can't remember what I am like or who I am without Effexor. I am emotional enough on it- what will I be like off it? I have been reading other blogs. My heart goes out to everyone who has ever struggled with the Effexor withdrawals.
Here is how I started: I frontloaded my dearest friends and family. I educated them on the signs and symptoms I may experience, and how this journey will effect me and them. I told them to show me UNCONDITIONAL and NON-JUDGMENTAL love and support. For my body, I loaded up on food until the fridge resembled the Canadian Food Pyramid. I bought Omega-3 Fish oil and multi-vitamins.
GOALS: - Every morning I take 2 Omega-3 Fish oil, one multi vitamin - every morning drink a cup of warm lemon water - Try to get at least 30 minutes of fresh air a day. Exercise when I can. - Drink a TON of water - Journal
Day One 225mg - hypersensitive and paranoid about feeling withdrawl symptoms. I am unmotivated, short, and my head feels a bit foggy.
Day Two 225mg - couldn't sleep last night, woke up sweaty. The rest of the day was fine.
Day Three 225mg - couldn't sleep last night, woke up sweaty. I'm energetic, motivated, impulsive. I notice I am avoiding conflict and stress.
Day Four 225mg - couldn't sleep, I had a whacky dream (very vivid dreams BTW), I was up until 4:44am and it was then that I felt my first wave of dizzy spells.
Day Five 225mg - couldn't sleep, had a good day otherwise.
Day Six 225mg - my dad tells me historically, sleep deprivation was used to torture people. I believe it. Last night I took 3 Benedryl pills. I have used them in the past to help me sleep. The didn't work this time. My day is productive, but I am impatient and sleepy.
Day Seven 225mg - I am currently recovering from a break-up that happened in Nov. Tonight I was triggered by something on Facebook (take a break from facebook if you can. It is an unnecessary stressor). I had a moment of impulsiveness and tears (2 minutes as oppose to a 40 min melt down), and stabilized after my mom let me vent for a bit. (having a nonjudgmental ear helps). - That night I could not stop my thoughts from circuling in my head. I couldn't even read a book. The thoughts were very intense, almost like I could hear them. View Thread
Day Eight 150mg - my aunt died last night, and I am scared to go to the funeral because I know it will be emotional - I decreased my dose by 75mg. I did this because I am determined to beat it. - I was foggy today
Day Nine 150mg - I slept in. I feel full of hate, fear and anger. I keep trying to redirect my negative thoughts, but they keep coming back. I woke up in a puddle of sweat, and my skin has broken out in severe acne.
Day Ten 150mg - I have not been sleeping throughout the night, I wake up wet and get the chills.
Day Eleven 150mg - night chills, puddle of sweat in the AM, acne is worse. around 5pm I get dizzy, blurry vision, hot and heavy head, negative thoughts.
Day Twelve 150mg - night chills, puddle of sweat, BAD acne, around 5pm, my head gets heavy and I get dizzy
Day Thirteen 150mg - my thoughts are more rational. got some sleep, dreams are less vivid. I didn't need to change my PJs because I didn't sweat as much, my acne is getting better and I didn't have any head problems.
Tomorrow I meet with my Family Doctor. I have not talked to him since May 2012. I will return with updates.
At this point, I feel like I am stable on 150mgView Thread