I have PTSD, Panic Attacks, Anxiety and Depression. I get very nervous when I have to be around certain people. I fear leaving my house and going to visit a friend or relative, and I belive that usually people are hurtful and not loving or friendly. I do not do well with insults, and being told what to do, I am an adult 57 years of age, and I feel that some of my family regard me as "nuts" and I think that is awful, my own son (he is married with three children) calls me "nuts, crazy, etc" and it hurts so much, I have had relatives including my son say stuff like "oh you were in the loony bin". I dont know how to handle these people. I love the Lord with all of my heart and when ppl are mean to me sometimes I cuss at them, then I feel horrible about myself because I am not pleasing to God. I was in a marriage many years ago for three and a half years, nothing but violence, my ex beat me the entire time of our marriage. It began one week into the marriage. He was using alcohol and any kind of pill he could get his hands on and smoking pot. My entire body is a mess, I have had 20 + surgeries in 32 years. My mind is always going. I am thankful to God that I am a Survivor of Domestic Abuse.View Thread