I have been suffering from anxiety and so I have been told by my therapist OCD
For about a year and a half ago. But I have joined this to see if others have the same things as me.
When it first started I have no idea why, I was watching a horror movie having a couple beers and then boom hit me out of no where and I have never been the same mind set since. I felt dizzy, scared, worried, could not sleep at all, racing mind and a sense of lost of reality. I had this then for a week, constant crying and no sleep mind racing trying to figure out what the hell was going on.
Since then I have come a long way, I understand my problem I have excepted it, I have realised my problems are things I can deal with. I have gone through loads of things such as,
Thinking I was crazy
Thinking drugs at one point may have played apart
Thinking I was going to harm myself or others
A sense of never getting my old self back and so on and so on
But I have just started a diary writing my thoughts that bother me down and what I think the courses may be, since then I have been able to identify my triggers and when my brain tries to run away with it self I trained my self to face the problem and tell myself it's just the triggers it's just my mind over reacting on things,
But what I am trying to say is I have come a long way been through a hell of a lot but I have a lot of Intrusive thoughts, always bad things never good and it makes me worried and scared sometimes I feel I can't cope just wanna break out and shout and end it all, my thoughts sometimes scare me so much I cannot focus on anything else, does anyone else feel the same ! I have never taking medication and I wouldn't say to people to do so, your mind is a great thing and I believe if I got myself in this state there is a way out of this mind set as well , does anyone else suffer, or suffered with the same things as me ? If so any tips? And any sort of help they can provide, I can go days sometimes weeks feeling great but out of no where boom, i m back in my old ways of thinking.
One other thing I always get a lot of head pressure at the front my head and my eyes go funny as if I can't focus and after I get very very tired, anyone else ?
Thanks to anyone who reads this and special thanks to anyone that repliesView Thread
I have delt with the excact same feelings as you, except I don't have kids.
.i fear going crazy and a mental illness
. I fear harming myself or others yet I fear death
I have delt with my problems for about a year and a half now and have come along way dealing with how I feel, the physical symtoms of panic attack ect, was the thing that got me and worried me the most in the past, but I have learned that that is a natural feeling from the body when it feels threatend or scared, but the thing is is that it's me that puts myself in this state, it's all a snow ball effect. I have come a long way but the two thoughts I hate the most I fear we happen so much that I feel I cannot cope, yet some weeks I feel great and back to my old self again then it hits out of no where it's horrible, but just to let you know your not alone.View Thread
I know excactly how you feel, about a year and a half ago I had my first hit with all this horrible stuff, I have broke down many times trying to figure stuff out but i cannot seem to shake my feelings, the physical feelings were the feelings that worried me the most in the past but now I have learned to live with them feelings as they are my body's natural way of dealing with things when I feel worried or threatened, but the thing is is that it is me that's causing these threats. I have been weeks before going over mental ilnesses telling myself I have that I have that, and harmful thoughts of harming myself and others and it all gets to me so bad.
. I really fear going crazy, having a mental illness
. I fear hurting myself and others, yet like you I fear death
I have come a long way with everything but these 2 thoughts I hate but cannot get off my mind for the life of me it's so annoying. But yeah your not alone.View Thread
You have to understand that she is going through a very stressful time in her mind trying to figure stuff out, find herself and trying to get rid of these fears. You have over come a lot you say, so reach out and help her, the more people that help her will stop that snow ball effect that is so easy to build up and get worse.View Thread