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Weather: very warm
Sleep: Good for a change
Mood: good
Plans: Chores. Maybe start on a new necklace or bracelet or hat or purse or....who knows. Play with my doggy. Nothing else going on.
love to all, muahsView Thread
and currently on about a 2 month tapering off 1mg clonazapam -
currently down to .5 mg clonazapam- took me about a month of tapering to get to down to .5mg and continuing the taper by reducing about 1/4 of .5mg pill every week. I was severely depressed in early Jan. 2013 and had what I could describe as a nervous breakdown
had a 1 week stay as voluntary walkin suicidal- was diagnosed bipolar type 2 in about 15 minutes and the meds started coming my way- meds helped me immensely in hospital- since then been up/down - lithium prescribed march 6th- had lithium panel done 1 week later - reading was .5- they upped me from 600-900mg- took it for 1 week did not tolerate the increase at all- went back down to 600- have had no lithium panels since my DR. told me I only needed them every 6 months-
which from what I have read is wrong need them at the beginning at least 1 a month- still having some suicidal thoughts at times- believe meds are part of problem- had similiar breakdown once 30 years ago 3-5 days in hospital no meds went on with my life- my dream is to be well again with no meds or less meds- can you advise me on which med to start a responsible taper off next - after I get off the worst benzo- clonazapam- also please advise which of the meds I am on may actually be contributing to suicidal ideation instead of helping- this has been the worst 3 months of my life and I just want to reclaim my healthView Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Cloudy, humid and the clouds keep spitting at us.
Sleep: Good. Getting used to the new schedule of early rising.
Mood: Not bad. Headachy.
Plans: Do some house cleaning. Maybe rent a Red Box movie or two.
Hubs is wanting to work on the mural. So maybe if the headache stays in control. We shall see. He's also decided he needs to do church of some sort each week, so my background is Catholic and Judaism, so we're going to do a Mass. He's never been.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
I found that since I have been so medication sensitive, that I am going to go back to taking a mild dose of Ativan, which stabilizes my OCD, and social anxiety, without making me tired or spacey. I took a mild dose last year and never had to increase it.
I didn't want to take benzos so my doctor pushed me back on the Lexapro during the day and a small dose of Clonazepam at night ... Wow! I felt crazy, very manic and unable to focus. I would just hang out and suddenly the day would be over!
Please be careful if you are taking a more activating SSRI with Clonazepam ... my eyes dilated, my blood pressure went up and I just felt overwhelmed yet too happy.
I am starting to feel the drug companies aren't telling us the full story. I do not have any manic symptoms unless I am taking Lexapro. Please pay attention to yourself and what is going on, and I would appreciate hearing if anyone else has these issues, thank you.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Was supposed to rain all day. Apparently the meteorologist mistook humidity with rain.
Sleep: Decent. Slept til 10, and I can't do that. Trying to get used to g etting up at 4am. No more sleeping in for Mel. May sneak a nap in though.
Mood: Aggitated (ty inlaws), still growing anxiety. And still hypomanic
Plans: Rolled out of bed, took meds, and hubs decided to attack the wall mural I am working on. (I've got a lot to fix..lol) and I hopped right in and did most of the other side of it. All while dancing to current pop music, so I wiggling and dancing as I did it. I call it my wake-up and creative music. Ate a couple bagels. Hubs and I had our daily deep talk which we've been doing since he came home from the rehab/psych hospital. Helped him shave his head and trim his goatee which he always seems to mess up. LOL. Now I'm washing that gray right out of my hair. Not sure if I'm just going to let it curl or tackle the straightening process yet. Thinking curls. Find something to wear tonight. Cook dinner and then we're off to see ds1's HS play - Bye Bye Birdie. He is not actually "in" the play as a castmember, but he is the stage manager and has designed, built and painted all of the backdrops with help, of course, but the design and most of the painting is his. He had lots of help with building. Not his thing really. Then home to bed. Trying not to think about Tuesday (neuro appt) all day.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Dark, gloomy, going to rain but humid and low 80's
Sleep: Restless to spite the Trazadone.
Mood: Very anxious as the neuro appt approaches. Weather adding to it. Level otherwise. Manic gone.
Plans: Went to the labor pool, did more taxi runs. Will do more later on to pick people up. Going to go get my hair trimmed up and pick up some dye to get the dye to color it. May pick up a Red Box movie or two. I don't know. Just feel like energy is declining fast. May do breakfast. We'll see.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
My favorite is Kree. Love her. And Angie? WOW whenever she's behind that piano. And Amber is probably my 3rd fave. Not overly thrilled with Candice. There's just something about her that rubs me the wrong way. But I will admit she grand slammed her last song last night.
Tonight I see top three:
Kree
Candice
Angie
Bottom two:
Lazaro
Janelle
They're not gonna save Lazaro and he's gone. If he isn't I'm not going to be happy. He's not cutting it. And it's about time that a WOMAN IS GOING TO WIN after all these years.
View ThreadHope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: So far overcast and grey again. Plus COLD!!!! Where did my nice warm weather go to??? I HATE COLD FRONTS!!!!
Sleep: Pretty darn good. Got 10hrs.
Mood: Okay so far, but then hubbie isn't awake yet. he he he
Plans: It's Thursday again, so my usual on the week-end. Laundry, laundry, and more laundry. Plus some cleaning. AC is going out AGAIN, so need to clean so apartment is fit for maintenance to come in if needed. Tomorrow I'm going job hunting. Yea!!!! I've enjoyed my time off, but it's time for me to get back in the work force. It'll only be part time, but still that's better than nothing. Hope everyone has a fun filled day. I know I will. (((((((((HUGS)))))))))
J
PS Internet is acting up again, so if facebook friends and of course webmd friends don't see/hear from me for a while, that's why.View Thread
lamictal 300mg, Zoloft 200mg, zyprexa 20mg and was just taken off klonopin and put on Xanax 4 mg daily. Yet I still have some anxiety and ppanic attacks. I'm not sure what's going on especially being on this much
medication.
Maybe Dr. Goldberg can lend his thoughts.View Thread
lamictal 300mg, Zoloft 200mg, zyprexa 20mg and was just taken off klonopin and put on Xanax 4 mg daily. Yet I still have some anxiety and ppanic attacks. I'm not sure what's going on especially being on this much
medication.
Maybe Dr. Goldberg can lend his thoughts.View Thread
About This Community I am recovering from alcoholism/addiction. I have not had a drink in 23 yrs but used alot of street drugs. Have been clean for 11 mos. now and currently under doctors care w/methadone and also psychiatric care for bipolar disorder. I must take both but the effects of the Methadone are not lasting as they should (24 hrs). I am experiencing leg cramps, sleeplessness as well as cravings. also having watery eyes and sneezing. I have lowered my dose from 140 mg. down to 60 mg in 7 mos. I've been at a stable dose 4 about 2 mos. However, I have always hated taking Lithium but
in order for me to have any sort of a normal life, I must take the lithium as well. I need to know if one is affecting the other or if its in my head. Last but not least is there another pill I can take that won't effect MethadoneView Thread
Hello my dahlings
Weather: nice and warm
Sleep: had a terrible night. I miss my Lunesta
Mood: not sure yet. I' already in a lot of pain, so that may get me down.
Plans: uuggghhh. Some chores. Would like to work on some jewelry but if this pain doesn't let up, then I will be spending my day in bed. ggggrrrrr. Anyways, if I'm MIA today, then that means I'm in some serious pain.
Have a great day. muahsView Thread
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ck_zdV2z_U&list=PL2B6393DFE6EF94BA&index=20
"So Small"
[Verse 1>
What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
[Chorus>
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small
[Verse 2>
It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
[Chorus>
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Yeah, YeahView Thread
Weather: For the last month its been pretty hot. Yesterday the wind started blowing like crazy. I was afraid to take my dog for a walk because I thought she may start flying and I would have a dog kite. Today its still windy, but not as bad and its over cast. Typical Az., never know what the weather is going to be like.
Sleep: ok. I had a hard time falling asleep. I miss my Lunesta
Mood: ok, I think
Plans: I have a Gyno apt., need to be checked for a UTI and also want her to give me a different script for my VLSC. Lyrica just isn't cutting it anymore. Tonight is LOTRO night. I usually have to drug myself up in order to play because my VLSC is just too painful. Other than that, I have no clue what else I will be doing.
Muahs
p.s. J's internet is down so she probably won't be back on line for a few more days. She says "Hi".View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Hot and starting to get really humid out
Sleep: Had grandson and he slept a total of two hours until we woke woke up, then he promptly went to sleep.
Mood: Exhausted and very anxious
Plans: Had OT this morning. Made one of those cool water bottle things for Junior to play with. Make some lunch. Then take him home. I have my new pdoc appt today which I'm nervous and anxious about. Then it's off to hubs follow up psych appt. Then pick up some prescription and the home to pass out.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
im here to shed some light on my situation at hand. here is what went down. i recently, mid march 2013, went to my local family doctors office to ask him what this lump on my back muscle( lower right side) was. it was there for years and grew over time. he checked it out, and stated that he figured it to be a lipoma. it was causing pretty severe back pain, so i got him to remove it. my doctor had it sent in to get it checked, but i never got any information returned about it. i could only assume it is what he thought it was originally(phew). thats not my concern now though. after a couple weeks of pain and healing i have found yet another lump(yikes). this lump is located just under my right jaw bone. and i know what you all are thinking, swollen lymph node right? well it is not. i have fallowed where my lymph node goes and it is about the sizes of the top section of one finger. the lump on the other hand is smaller, about the size of a small thumb tack. which it can only be felt when i point my jaw straight up to the roof, or turn my head to the left. and what truthfully concerns me is i have never noticed it there before. not until after i got the one removed from my back. its been there for a little over a week, and causes severe pain. my jaw is on fire, and i don't have any troubles swallowing. i have had heavy drinking problems in the past, and i do smoke cigarettes. there is a history of cancer in my family, both grand parents on my dads side have past away due to cancer. my father has never been checked for it, so on that note i do not know. i just turned 23 this year, and cancer is weighing pretty heavily on my mind. i am going to book an appointment with my doctor this up coming week as soon as possible, just to be safe. but if anyone can shed any light on this subject, please don't hesitate to reply. thanks and best wishes to all.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Hot and sunny
Sleep" Long...still crashing I think from the adrenalin of the last few months
Mood: Blah and concerned
Plans: Made breakfast for hubs. Going to go attempt to talk to MIL who hasn't bothered to contact us. Step-daughter got Junior back. Good but of course she hasn't shown one ounce of concern for her father. We're supposed to go there too, but I don't think that's happening. Clean up the emotional mess of these visits and then dinner. Maybe a movie or two. Maybe The Following.
Hope you're all having a good Sunday.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
As far as my VLSC, the pain level is a 4 but it bounces around. The procedures went well but I have no idea if the Dr. did his job right. Cause when he put the electrodes under my skin, to burn the nerves, he kept asking me if I thought it was in the right place. WTH? How am I supposed to know? Anyways, I have to wait a freaking month to find out if it worked. In the mean time, they told me that my pain level will get worse. Goody gum drops.
I hope your doing well. I'm a bit concerned cause you didn't sound too good on the message but that could just have been my lyrica infested mind inventing it. If things in my mind levels out today I will give you a call back.
Thanks for calling honey. You are such a kind hearted and loyal and loving friend. Your the best.
Love ya, muahsView Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: Hot and sunny.
Sleep: Long, but exhausting none the less
Mood: Mixed episode still but on the down side today
Plans: Slept. Slept. Slept. Went out and planted the peas and either cucumber or squash. SOMEBODY (ds2) didn't tag whether it was cucumber or squash when we did the starters and their leaves are too similar at this age to tell. LOL. Otherwise looks like I am not going to be doing nothing other than maybe cooking dinner.View Thread
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
Weather: hot
Sleep: Hardly got any. Couldnt fall asleep
Mood: ok. I must be a bit manic
Plans: Dropped doggy off at doggy day care, then stopped at Micheals to pick up beads (must have more beads), then did the grocery shopping, picked up doggy and am doing some chores. My back is friggin killing me but my other thing isn't too terribly bad today.
Gonna watch a movie tonight with the hubby and eat a bunch of stuff thats not good for me, like peanut butter M and Ms. mmmm
Have a far out and funky day dahlings. muahsView Thread
Weather: Overcast and grey. May rain.
Sleep: Mixed and not very comfortable. Dang cat.
Mood: bitchy.
Plans: Hubbie's working, I'm gonna try and make homemade banana nut muffins along with maybe apple muffins. Haven't make up my mind yet. Depending on how I feel, may go to the fitness center on site. Finally got the okay to start working out again now that just about everything has been done. :Hope you all have a good day.
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))
JessView Thread
Weather: Overcast and grey. May rain.
Sleep: Mixed and not very comfortable. Dang cat.
Mood: bitchy.
Plans: Hubbie's working, I'm gonna try and make homemade banana nut muffins along with maybe apple muffins. Haven't make up my mind yet. Depending on how I feel, may go to the fitness center on site. Finally got the okay to start working out again now that just about everything has been done. :Hope you all have a good day.
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))
JessView Thread
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