Mood: OK. The kind when you are dragging inside and want to hide, but I am putting on a face to get the stuff done that has been waiting for 6 weeks.
Plans: I have cleaned up the junk and spam from my main account. How did I get on these mail lists? It took me over an hour to clean up 6 weeks worth. I have at least 3 more jobs to do before I am done.
Not much else. Pain is there, but the meds help. My husband is in a weird mood and he really irritates me. My new baby Rosie is sleeping at my feet. She is the reason I can get up and do stuff.
I hope everyone gets a moment of peace of fun during the weekend.
Plans: Get on the computer and say hi, order presents for my son's birthday and pick a wedding gift for a friend.
I haven't been on the computer for 6 weeks. A combo of pain and being over medicated. Things are better balanced now. I may be facing back surgery in the future, but I am waiting for the birth of my first grandchild. My daughter is 34 weeks along, but she is very short, so that baby is just crammed in there.
I hope everyone has a moment of peace now and then and may it lead to happiness.
Sleep: Terrible, my hips hurt like the devil when I lay on one side for an hour or so. I am beginning to think that the surgery wasn't as magical as I would hope.
Mood: Better than Wednesday! I got a nap this afternoon and I am packing to fly to Sacramento for my daughter's baby shower.
Plans: Get packed and hopefully to bed before midnight.
Hugs to all,
PS I saw my baby Rosie when I was staying with my niece. Her coat has filled in to full white, soft teddy bear fur. They have done a wonders socializing her and teaching her not to run out the door, lick faces, chew on fingers, etc. I will pick her up next week. She is so darn cute!View Thread
Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.
Yes, my son lives on his own, but from what my husband and daughter have observed, no one would ever live with the mess. My husband handles my son's finances,i.e. pays bills, and puts an allowance in his back account. The tension was terrible on Wednesday. I drove out to get my hair cut and visit my niece and my little Rosie. When I came home Thursday my husband had calmed down.
I have talked to some of my friends and they all said that they did not want their moms hanging around, but wanted them after the baby was brought home. I'm packing now to fly to Sacramento and rent a car to attend the shower. I had a lot of fun buying things for the baby and a gown and robe for my daughter. Jenny has always been a bit distant to me. I was deep in the throws of depression when she was 16. I think the hormones has intensified those angry feelings. I am hoping the rush of pitocin mellows her out.
Mood: Depressed, anxious and impatient My son has been visiting for 10 days and he is very difficult to be around. He is autistic and has bipolar 1, and he will not take meds. He is a whirl wind of energy (he is 28) and sees the world as black and white. His manic shows through his super-religious personality. Please don't take that as an insult to religion, but he is way over the top. We had planned to have him go home after 5 days, but he wanted to stay to see some old friends here. He saw a few people, but he has been hanging around the house being critical of everyone. He eats a strange but healthy diet and wants all of us to exercise more. We do need to exercise more, but he wanted his 90 year old grandmother to "sprint" up our hill and do some light weight lifting. He argues over nothing and we have to walk around on eggshells. My husband is so afraid that if we don't do as he wants us to do we will never see my son again. I love my son, but he is here only 22 more hours and I can't wait to get things back to normal.
Plans: Go to the Motherhood maternity store to get a nightgown for my daughter. Her baby shower is Saturday. In addition to the gifts for the baby, I'm giving my daughter some things for her to pack in her bag for the hospital.
In addition: My daughter lives 500 miles away, so I have planned to arrived a few days before the baby is due and stay for a week or so after. My husband will be joining me as soon as the baby is born. When I spoke to her about being around to help her, me daughter makes it clear that she doesn't want me hanging around. My husband and I planned to stay at a hotel close by to give the new family privacy, but my daughter clearly stated that she won't need me. Her husband is taking a few days off after the baby is born and if she (my daughter) needs someone to help, her best friend is available because her friend's work is "as needed" so my daughter will not be needing me. She told me that we could stay with her, but I had not mentioned about being there before the baby is born. I told my daughter that I understood that no one someone hanging around. My mother lived only a few miles away and could come over if I needed her. That is the reason I was going to stay at a hotel, but my daughter made it clear that she wants me visiting only a few days. My heart is breaking and I am trying not to think about it, because I will seeing her on Saturday at the shower.
No one here can really diagnosis your symptoms, but I would consult your therapist about getting in touch with a psychiatrist. Sometimes despite being under a psychiatrist's care bipolar disorder can be difficult to diagnosis.
Sorry I could not directly answer your question. Let us know from time to time how you are doing. We are all here because we understand each other and we can even see some of the funny side of the diagnosis.
It is pretty lonesome on the board tonight, but I haven't logged in for a couple weeks, so I thought I would check to see if you are all behaving (some are never going behave, and you know that I know who you are).
Weather: Warm and sunny
Sleep: I wake up several times a night because of pain in my hip. I found out this is separate from my back surgery. I guess my body is telling me something. What?? What did you say body? I can't hear well lately.
Mood: I was in terrible lows until yesterday. My daughter visited here for my MIL's 90th birthday party and I got to feel the baby move! My daughter is only 5 ft. and she looks really pregnant.
Plans: Not much. I just made a coffee and Cini Melts run to Mc Donalds. I am in love. Just what I need, another 20 pounds.
My heart goes out to you who are having difficult times.