
*trigger* Anniversary date
I am reaching the anniversary date of my suicide attempt. And it seems like all I am able...
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I am reaching the anniversary date of my suicide attempt. And it seems like all I am able to do lately is think about that time. I'm not sure if I'm again sliding to be suicidal or if I am just dwelling on that time. I am afraid to say anything to my family or doctor in fear that they will take what I am saying wrong. I don't know what to do right now and needed a place to reach out safely.View Thread
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Can't afford therapy
Wondering if anyone out there has any ideas for me. I can't afford therapy right now, and...
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Wondering if anyone out there has any ideas for me. I can't afford therapy right now, and really need it right now. (Church is out for me, I'm an atheist) In my very small area I live in there is really no choices out here. I'm looking for anything including something online. I'm getting desperate again. I feel suicidal everyday and only keep from it due to my small children in the house with me. I need someone to talk to. Any help is appreciated.View Thread
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constantly in pain it seems like
I have been on here before, venting, and the last time I did I checked myself into a...
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I have been on here before, venting, and the last time I did I checked myself into a crisis center for several days because I had decided at that time that I was going to do something final to myself. Well it has been a few months since then. I have been removed from work (they do not want me there but will not fire me due to other reasons) and trying to both file for disability and a bankruptcy at the same time. I am constantly tired. I am constantly in pain. No matter what I do, what meds I take, who I talk to, its all the same. I don't think I'll ever pull out of this.. day by day I get worse and worse. I think constantly of what it would be like for everyone if I wasn't around. And yes I know how much a suicide hurts a family (knowing this by experiencing it firsthand) But I also know what it does to everyone to be around them making their lives miserable everyday.. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to keep doing this to everyone I love.View Thread
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Not sure what to say on this post
I want to thank everyone who was nice and responded to me with such kind words. I wish I...
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I want to thank everyone who was nice and responded to me with such kind words. I wish I could paint a rosy picture and say that everything has gotten better for me and that I'm not suicidal right now. To tell the truth, I still have my plan worked out and the timing. Please don't let me upset anyone here, although that seems to be my lot in life, to upset anyone I'm around. I'm not strong enough to beat this and understand now why my uncle took his life. I'm not posting this to get anyone rilled up but as a last post. Thank you webmd for trying to help. Thank you everyone else for the same.View Thread
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I am bipolar and suicidal
[Trigger] I am 27 years old. I have been dealing (by myself) with bipolar since I was very young. I...
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[Trigger] I am 27 years old. I have been dealing (by myself) with bipolar since I was very young. I always remember feeling different from everyone. I couldn't seem to keep happy, no matter what was going on around me. I would tell my parents, only to be told that I was trying to get attention. When my parents divorced at age 9 my world fell apart. An older cousin of mine saw the opportunity to abuse me and did so for several years on. I moved away from my family at age 16. Married my husband at age 18 after graduation. We have three children together. My house of cards fell apart on me January of this year. I have been secretly dealing with all my problems and couldn't handle it anymore. I went to my doc and told him my feelings and that I was suicidal. He prescribed Welbutrin for me and it was a mistake. Within several days I was worse and attempted suicide to stop the voices within and the horrible feelings I was going through. After receving a little treatment I started to see a wonderful therapist. But just very recently she was killed in a car accident. Now I am back to where I started. If not worse. I've seen the other side. I'm very tired of faking my way through the day. Faking my happiness and pasting a smile on me for my husband, my children, for everyone. I just want some release and some peace. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I'm getting to the end of my rope.View Thread
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