Plans: work all day. and then go back to bed to keep me from doing something stupid. Not feeling that great. I gotta stay strong until the semester is over then a trip to the nuthouse is where I'll be if I am not stable. My life is so boring and lame.
I am still here. My semester is winding down and i am ready for a break. The students drive me nuts. So I am desparately need that break. What really sucks is my hrs are cut AGAIN. So it means I will have to redo the certification forms. I don't like doing it because its a pain in the rear.
I am also firing my T because she has not helped me one bit. She keeps changing the theme everytime I come in for my appt. So I found another agency who I will see in Dec. Wish it was closer though. Oh well.
Have you thought trying to drink cranberry juice? From my experience when I feel I am getting those infections, my doc suggested I drink cranberry juice. It worked and it cleaned out the mess. Girly stuff here if u are a male u might want to skip out on this subject. Have you changed soap lately? Have you tried Cetaphil which is not so chemically meshed together. Meaning no chemical additives as well as Laundry detergents. I use Tide Free because my body is so sensitive that I break out.
Anyway, I hope some of suggestions may be of help and enjoy your holiday better. We'll keep chatting though.
Plans: spent the day cleaning my apt. Its almost done.
TRIGGER-Have a bit of pet peeve; There's been a barrage of religious discussion on FB. I had to block one person because she has gone overboard. I had enough. I get enough dose of it here at home at my own time. So I asked nicely to dial it down. Hope that sends a message. I really do not want to fight them. Enough is enough. I do believe in G.O.D. but having it preached at daily is getting annoying.
I may have found a better place for counseling if I don't get placement. Might use them for temporary purpose. I feel my meds are not working. its ineffective. and tipping to the manic side. Lovely. I just hope it doesn't go full blown one. My cards are all cut up so can't use them.
My family and friends are becoming concerned about my mental health and the instability that is going on. I know they are but I also know my treatment plan isn't working. It is ineffective. It is due to the therapist is not helping and we have so many infrequent sessions to actually work on the problem. So, they suggested I go into treatment center then when well enough to live in specialized unit that fits my needs. The programs aren't local it is far north and none of my family is going to like it. Here is the trigger I think about SIV frequently out of frustrations at things going on in my life that makes me want to do it.
I try all the stop its but none is really working. Oh well. I really don't know what pdoc is going to do after I tell her what the family says. I am planning on dumping the therapist for the time being unless things change.
We'll see what the pdoc comes up with for treatment.