You can have mania and not have psychosis. If you are having mania you are already in an episode so psychosis isn't triggering it. No one knows why some people have psychosis and others don't. I have bipolar I and have mania but have never had psychosis. I do know that is you don't address the mania your chance of becoming psychotic increases. Your mind racing is part of the mania, the delusions are from the psychosis.
Also, you can also become psychotic with depression. The good new is that if you have bipolar and tend to have psychosis, you won't have it between episodes. If you have psychosis when your mood state is "normal" then you would probably be diagnosed as schizoaffective which is a combination of schizophrenia and a mood disorder.View Thread
I have taken stimulants in the past (Concerta and later generic ritalin) because all I did was sit all day. However, my current antidepressant conflicts with all the stimulants so I had to drop it. I don't think my doctor would have given it to me to lose weight. I too have gained weight from psychotrophic drugs but I am now dieting and exercising to lose the weight.View Thread
Sleep walking and talking are not part of bipolar. They are part of a sleeping disorder.
As far as accepting goes, it seems you may not recognize that bipolar is an illness or disorder, not a personal weakness. Once you have accepted that bipolar is a disorder you will be able to accept that you have it (assuming you have been diagnosed).View Thread
I just finished reading the document. At first it sounded good but I think it is unrealistic. The "successful" programs include a tiny amount of people with disabilities and will have little impact. It did include a lot of statistical information that is true such as people on disability live in poverty. There is some truth to some of the statements included but it does seem to be aimed at getting people on jobs who really can't function on jobs so they can reduce disability and medical program rolls.View Thread
There is no way nurses would beat you and throw you around the room. It sounds like a hallucination or dream. The bruises are easily explained by your treatments. And since you just laid in a bed for two weeks it is not surprising that you were weak and couldn't walk easily. I was in bed for 8 days, rarely getting out of bed when hospitalized for pancreatitis and I was weak physically. Your back problems wouldn't be related to your OD. Sometimes things just happen in proximity to each other but aren't caused by the other thing. It sounds like your life has improved and continuing to work on your back with your doctor will make it even better.View Thread
I guess I didn't completely answer your questions. As to why one person would be suicidal and another wouldn't, there are some things that increase the chance such as having a relative who suicided, having made an attempt in the past, having mental illness, male but female make more unsuccessful attempts, single, depressed, between the age of 15 and 24, male over the age of 75, lack of support system, alcohol use, having a plan....
There are also things that are protective such as having strong religious beliefs against suicide, good support system, having young children...
The thoughts you are having of death and terminal illnesses are called passive suicidal thoughts because you have no intent to commit suicide. How can you stop them? Talk to your doctor about a medication adjustment.View Thread
I have bipolar I (used to be diagnosed with BP II) and when I have hypomania or move into mania I am usually very irritable and don't find it pleasant at all. Nor do I like depression because I become suicidal. I guess I only like "normal".View Thread
Many people around here has case managers (social workers from the county mental health department) who do things like take clients to doctor appointments. We also have a volunteer taxi service for doctor appointments. People also don't have appointments with pdocs very often and many of them use taxi services. There are always ways to get to a psychiatrist.View Thread