Mozzer, I agree with Kitty. Distance away will be the best thing for you. I do not get along with my mom at all. Never have, probably never will. (She's too demanding and bossy in my opinion plus she doesn't approve of my choice of husband.) Once I left Indiana and moved to Texas our relationship actually started to improve. Well, at least until we had a huge fight this past July when I went home to visit. My family totally does not understand my bipolar and as a result I've actually been told not to come home to visit on several occassions. In fact, if I want to set foot anywhere near my hometown I have to not only get my parents' permission, but my husband has to call my mom and assure her that I'm stable enough to come home. It's a complete circus. My husband and I are pretty sure that my little sister is bipolar as well, but they refuse to take her to a doctor to get tested. All because no one in our family has ever had bipolar before, so I must be faking it. So I totally agree with Kitty. Find a roommate or an apartment that you can afford and move out. Your family is not your responsibility. If they can't abide by the ground rules you all set when you agreed to move in, then it's their loss. Good luck.
Weather: Overcast most of the day. Sun did come out a little. Started off really cold, but warmed up to high 60's.
Sleep: Eh... Been tired all day. Couldn't stay awake in our marriage counseling session for nothing. Took two naps still kinda tired. Hope this doesn't happen again tomorrow.
Plans: Had session with marriage counselor, total bust. At least Matt got something out of it. Finished the book I was reading, kinda disapointed by the ending, otherwise okay book. Started the first of a triology that I had gotten the thrid book of a while ago. Gonna read that I guess. Made plans with our new neighbors to see Thor saturday. Looking forward to that. Hope everyone has a nice night.
Morning everyone!!! Hope you all slept well and woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed.
Weather: Overcast and dreary. May rain.
Sleep: Not enough. Cat woke me up wanting attention.
Mood: Little depressed, little manic, still feeling overwhelmed somewhat. (see earlier post.)
Plans: Matt says that unless I get the house cleaned before my surgery he's not going to help at all, so it's laundry, laundry, and more laundry, plus cleaning the living room. I'm real proud of myself. Yesterday I got the dinning room table cleared off and the sofa. I also washed and folded 4 loads of laundry. And I HATE to fold clothes. Well the washing is on it's final cycle so I've got to go. Hope everyone has a good day. Cookie how are you feeling? Hope you're doing better. Later y'all.
Thanks for the encouragement. Wow, 100lbs, that's what I've gained since I started taking meds. You're lucky. Although I have managed to lose some weight, it's just really hard especially when you don't have the best support for it. My husband means well, but he thinks I'm beautiful the way I am and don't need to lose weight. Men! What do they know. I am feeling more confident about the procedure today. Yesterday was just so overwhelming. I'm even starting to look forward to it a little. So thanks for the encouragement, and I'll definetly let you know how things go.
Well it's about a quarter til 10 here in Texas and it's been another full day. This morning I had my presurgery consultation with the plastic surgeon who's doing my breast reduction. Yep, I'm going under the knife all for the sake of beauty. Or at least that's what my mom thinks. Actually I'm having the surgery done to help with the crippling back pain I suffer from. The surgery is scheduled for the 20th and I'm starting to have second thoughts. I've wanted this for a long time, just about every general practitioner I've seen has pushed it on me, but now that it's actually approved and scheduled, I'm wondering if I'm making a huge mistake. There's so many things that I have to do before surgery, and afterwards, I'm going to be pretty dependent on my husband for a long time. I've had surgery before, but nothing like this. Every thing I've had done before I've bounced back fairly quickly from and there really wasn't much after care. There's so much I've got to do to prevent infection and keep the scars from doing funky things, I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I called my grandmother today to tell her that the surgery was scheduled and all she could talk about was how much better I was going to feel, how happy she is that I'm having it done, I felt a little betrayed. No reassurance that things would go okay, that I was doing the right thing/making a wise decision. And my mom, don't even get me started. I had a fight with my parents when I went home to visit in July and haven't spoken to them since. Grandma made me promise to call mom, and I just couldn't do it. I'm still too hurt by what happened in July. So Matt called. My father answered the phone and was down right rude to Matt and mom wasn't much better. At least I kept my promise and they both know. I'm so confused. I wish I could talk to mom about everything, but she's made it abundantly clear that she doesn't want to hear from me. Which hurts a lot. I miss the way things were, and I'm feeling very alone and scared. Well, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Hope everyone is doing better than I am. Miss you guys. The board seems kinda dead lately. Well, gotta feed the cats. They're being total pests. Night all.
Morning Debbie and all the other beepers out there.
Weather: Grey and overcast. Looks like it may rain. However don't think we're supposed to get any. Cool.
Sleep: Eh... got 8 hrs still feel tired. May take a nap.
Mood: Pretty good.
Plans: No way around it. I have got to clean my living room. It looks like a disaster area. Now just to get motivated to do so. Also need to do laundry. Speaking of which, I did the stupidest thing yesterday. Finally got Matt to take me to the park by our place and we went for a walk. I grabbed our camera because I thought I might want to take a picture or to. Well, when I went to do laundry last night I forgot to check my pocket and yep, there was the camera. Fortunately I hadn't spent too much money on it when I bought it three years ago, I just felt so stupid. We recently had to wipe our computer and I hadn't reloaded the photos and now we've lost them. Oh, some are on facebook, but not all of them, and not the ones of my birthday. Matt says maybe he'll get me a new camera for Christmas. We'll see. Hope everyone has a good week. Take care my friends.
Morning!!! It's a beautiful fall day here in Texas. We had rain all day yesterday and I thought it would never end. But the sun's out and it looks like it's gonna be a fantastic day.
Weather: Sunshine and warm temps. Not sure how warm.
Sleep: Horrible. Went to bed with a headache and it never went away. Was up and down all night.
Mood: Other than STILL having a headache, pretty good.
Plans: Fold clothes, do some reading, finally get back to the project I've been working on. Haven't touched it for three weeks. Feel bad, because if I was working under a deadline I'd be hopelessly behind. Only 10,000 more words til I feel I can try submitting it. Hope it gets accepted. That would just be wonderful. Oh well, off to facebook to check in on my family. ((((((((((HUGS))))))))
A good song playing on the radio or my computer. Discovering old music on ITunes. Reading a good book. Spending time with friends and family. Making new friends. Cooking for my hubby!! Feeding the fish at the lake. spending time with my darling husband. When my cat Peabody lays on my lap and sleeps while I read (this is a real treat because he does it so rarely.) seeing what friends and family are up to on facebookView Thread
Afternoon my darling beeper friends. It's so good to be back, at least I think I am. we've got our computer back, and I hope to be more active in the community again.
So here goes:
Weather: Lookin' good. Not sure how warm it's supposed to be, mid 70's I think.
Sleep: Like a baby. In fact got too much sleep and didn't get an errand run that needed to be done. Guess I should have set an alarm.
Mood: Pretty good.
Plans: Clean house a little, do laundry, and eventually get back to the story I'm writting. Yep, I'm trying my hand at something I always wanted to do. If everything goes well, I will be an inspriational romance writter. I'm excited about it. Everyone who's read what I've written so far have been very encouraging. And like I told our marraige counselor, it gives me something to do. So that's my day. Hope everyone has a good one. (((((((HUGS)))))))
How I wish you all could be in DFW with me today. We are having the most fantastic weather. The sky is clear as a bell, not a cloud in sight, and such a fantastic shade of blue it makes me want to sing. After all the hot sticky weather of summer fall seems to have finally arrived and I'm loving it. Wish you were here to share it with me.
Weather: Fantastic. Supposed to get up to 68 today. Loving it!
Sleep: Like an angel.
Mood: Thanks to new med that I'm on I'm feeling pretty good once again.
Plans: Want to go to the park but hubbie isn't feeling well, so will probably watch Netflix with him later on. Paid some bills, now I've got to figure out what to do with the rest of my day. Want to work on the novel I've been writing, but our computer is in the shop finally getting worked on, so that's out of the question. I'm at the business center in our apartment complex using one of their computers, and I hate to say it, but I'll be so glad when I have my puter back so I don't have to walk up here just to chat with friends. Not that I've been on much lately even when I had the puter. Just didn't feel like it. Turning a new leaf I think, gonna try to be more available for my friends. Oh well, laundry is calling, so I better finish this up so I can check facebook before I have to do laundry yet again. Take care my friends and have a fantastic day.