Does anybody have trouble obsessing about things that you have no control over? I'm not talking so much about worry but anger, even rage. I know it would be a bad idea to act on my feelings and I know I need to let go, but I don't know how. Oh well I have a first appointment with a therapist tomorrow so maybe he can help. I don't have alot of confidence though because I can't seem to forgive. When it is a stituation that is ongoing how do you forgive? It is like trying to forgive someone who has stepped on your foot while he is still standing on it!! And he has no intention of ever taking his foot off!! I have hate in my heart and I don't know how to get rid of it.
I can understand your frustration. I assume your son is back home. I think your concerns are justified, but I think this is where a therapist can help you out. Yes apathy is a symptom of depression. And so is immaturity. How to tell the two apart? I think right now it is the depression, but if he behaves the same way when he is well then there is another problem.
Again, don't make an assumption that he is manipulating you or making up reasons to go to the hospital. Personally the hospital is the last place I want to go to!
Anon, I have to be honest with you. I am getting frustrated that you keep coming on here complaining but not taking any advice from us. Most of us have been urging you to be patient with your son and not make assumptions about his behavior. We have also urged you to get therapy in order to know how to cope with him and give you guidance on how to help him get well.
I don't know about others, but I am tapped out. I can't think of anything to tell you that I haven't told you over and over. I'm done giving advice. I am not answering your posts anymore.
I am sorry you are going through so much. Have you seen a psychiatrist? I am especially concerned about your hearing voices. You really need to see someone as soon as possible. You don't have to live this way.
Most psych meds are not addictive and don't make you high, so there is no reason to manipulate the doctor to get them. However sleeping pills and tranquilizers can be very addictive, but a good doc will keep track of it. There are some docs that do not care, though. I am saying this not to scare you, because not everybody gets addicted to these meds. However I did and it was hell to get off of them.
The biggest mistakes that my docs did was keep raising my dosage. I was not drug seeking. I developed what is called tolerance which means that the dose had to be raised in order to get the same effect. Eventually I became a full-blown addict.
If there is any concern about addiction, there are other meds that are not technically sleeping pills and tranquilizers but have calming properties as a side effect.
I have also found natural remedies such as GABA and melatonin helpful.
It is not unusual for us to have multiple things wrong with us. It makes treament very complicated! The only things I think are mutually exclusive is that you can't have both bipolar and major depression. What you can have is a type of bipolar that mostly manefests as depression with some episodes of hypomania. I was diagnosed with major depression because that is what brought me to the hospital. My hypomanic episodes were not serious enough for anybody to notice.
I have no experience with ADHD but I can imagine that it might get confused with mania (just a guess). However you could certainly have both ADHD and bipolar.
I wish I could help you more but unfortunately psychiatry is not an exact science. Doctors go by what you tell them so it is very important to give them as much info as you can. But even then there may be disagreement among different docs. One doc diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder. I do not agree because I have read up on it and I don't have the symptoms. Another had diagnosed me with dystimia (sorry spelling). That is a low level chronic depression that is not serious. As I understand it, it does not require hospitalization. Since I was in the hospital for a suicide attempt I can't understand why he diagnosed me with that.
It can be confusing but it can help if you learn about your illnessness and use some common sense. Some doctors are simply better than others in interpreting the symptoms of mental illnes but right now there are no lab tests to diagnose it (although there are some experimental tests).