No, this is not my issues. My Doctor is away and I would like to know answers. A number of us went out last night, we have visitors here. The topic turned to Bipolar Disorder, I was the only Bipolar so I tried to explain what I consider Bipolar to be.
My question is: As a Bipolar like me, Rapid Cycling Bipolar 1 taking massive doses of medication start to deteriorate in areas like ALWAYS being perfectly dressed, made up, perfect hair etc. ? Wouldn't the meds help me keep some normalcy ? Gone from always being very social, parties, dinners, Black Tie, Committees, Charities etc. to preferring quiet, being with my dogs, reading ?
After ECT, will I be able to cut back on meds ?View Thread
After the renal failure, my life split into a billion pieces. I had a MAJOR breakdown. The anxiety was so bad I broke out into quarter size bloody sores head to toe. I was at MD Anderson hospital for gland surgery. They biopsied the sores and it came back as Simplex Chronicus ? (can't remember last word). Supposedly, it is the worst anxiety you can have, I shook uncontrollably 24/7, I had trouble speaking. My doctor wanted to put me somewhere so I could calm down. If you aren't a drunk or drug addict there are no other places. What does Silver Hill do ?View Thread
I had spoken to my Psychiatrist on numerous occasions regarding my struggle to maintain a life. I also asked you and the responses were always almost identical. However, I always just called you Dr. G.
I am diagnosed with PTSD and extreme anxiety, I had a bleeding ulcer when I was 15. I am convinced the anxiety exacerbates my bipolar issues. As an example, I was fine the day I went to see my Psychiatrist. When he brought up the ECT I started to shake and when I got home my ongoing depression was worse. I could not stop crying.
I have worked so hard to control my bipolar issues. I have never missed a day of meds, I learned breathing exercises to calm down. I dislike taking tranquilizers, but I have to. Are there any other avenues of treatment you are aware of ?
Well, we have a rather unusual event. You and my Psychiatrist know each other. Not just in passing either.
The last time I saw him, I told him I would not do ECT for ANY REASON !!!!After the hell I've been through., housebound for more than a year. I was just about to be given freedom and the almost unbearable anxiety I have on a daily basis was causing Bipolar problems. I saw him this afternoon and I brought a copy of your note. As I started to speak, he yells"This is the Dr. G you talk about all the time ? I said yes and he's is in total disbelief. However, he never tried to make me feel pressured, he said, he would have answered the same as you did. I'm starting next week, I'm extremely anxious but I'm sure I'll be OK.
During this year and a half of being housebound, I've had time to review my bipolar history. There is no doubt that I have been bipolar since I was a child. However, I was a functioning bipolar, I was an Honors student through Prep School, College, Grad School. I had a high level Executive position in the third largest Medical Company in the world. An overwhelmingly traumatic event sent me over the edge into a monster.,I have ALWAYS DESPISED BULLIES and I started to target them.I used my 167 IQ to learn how to hack into computers. A particularly obnoxious rodent I know in NYC did some horrible bullying to children. I went down to Christopher St and found all the Gay S & M bars. I put up flyers requesting partners with his e-mail and copying his boss. He got fired and I loved it. That was the end for me, I am not this kind of person.
My terror of ECT is aphasia, brain damage, speech impairment, which occurred with the renal failure. I also had a severe breakdown that took 3 months to subside. I also am aware if I don't do it, I'll never leave this house again.
I cannot thank you enough for your clear and concise explanation. I feel much better.
I've been away for awhile, major bipolar issues and a diagnosis of PTSD. We've been trying to control my swings, however I am a very serious rapid cycling bipoar1. I have swings every day !!!
My dog died and I crashed into a massive depression, I could not get out of bed or stop crying. 3 days into the depression I was taken to the hospital with the Norvo Virus. I have never been so sick in my life
I saw my Psychiatrist to discuss the mess I am in. 2 1/2 years ago, I was in the same predicament I'm in now, I had taken all the drugs on the market except Lithium, I was scared to death of it and DID NOT want to take it, However, my mania was out of control and I was extremely nasty and aggressive. The surges of adrenalin were at a peak level and I HATE bullies. I have been riding and showing horses since I was 3. Tossing 120 pound bales of hay, mucking stalls, carrying huge buckets of water make you very strong. I saw a woman hitting a puppy and I beat her senseless. This happened often, but ONLY with bullies. I took the Lithium and it killed my thyroid. A few months later I had my creatinin levels taken and they were 1.0. 2 weeks later I arrived at the Hospital DOA in total renal failure with a creatinin level of 9.0 from Lithium Toxcicity . NO ONE to this day has any idea what happened ? My renal function is 30% all from taking a drug I did not want to take. I was completely DETOXED and I did well with no meds. Of course, the time comes when the symptoms return and you need to start taking meds again. I have been housebound for more than a year because if I was around people I would get sick.
Here I am again, the ONLY thing left is ECT and I am scared to death of it. I read everything on here, watched the videos and I'm still scared to death. I got slammed when I agreed to the Lithium againgst my gut and I feel the same about the ECT. What do you think ????View Thread
When I arrived at the hospital, DOA in total renal failure from Lithium Toxicity, Creatinin 9.0. I do not remember anything. I woke up in a ICU room, hooked to alarms, IV's etc. All I remember is confusion and fear. It wasn't until I saw my Internist come by, that I stopped crying.
My experience is different because I was at the hairdresser's and evidently just out of it. As my hairdresser was calling my husband, I bolted. I have absolutely no recollection of any of this either. According to my hairdresser, I was hallucentating, severe aphasia. I was driving a car !!! This is a small town so my husband got some people go look for me. Finally, they found me parked at the lake, just completely non compus mentis.
I grew up in Latin America, Spanish is my first language. However, I'm a Black Irish. When I start to speak Spanish, people are unbelieveably surprised. Nobody knew what to do, they needed info which they could not get. It was almost 3 days that I started to mumble but not speak. On day 3 someone in the hall was speaking Spanish and I responded as if I was the person in the hall. They dragged this poor Dr. in to translate. I had no idea what happened ? I could not understand the nurses, they finally brought someone to help. The nice Cardiologist had other work.
I had such severe Aphasia, it was weeks before it was gone. I have read everything I can find regarding my language issue with no results. Even today, if I get anxious I have an aphasia reaction.
What do you think ? Thank you, Best Allison
We are having an argument over my language issue, the research I found explains that when you get to basic brain, you will speak your first language. In my case Spanish, I did not speak English until years later, but I've been speaking it for years. ???View Thread