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mercygive

Joined: 10/26/2011
My Story:
I suffered many years before and after I was diagnosed. I was diagnosed Borderline/Bipolar 16 years ago after checking myself into a hospital for outpatient services (I refused to take lithium as recommended) followed by a year of intensive individual and group therapy of which there was no one in the group who shared my diagnoses. I had no one to talk to who really understood me. A mental illness diagnosis was difficult for me to accept so I continued to live in denial and did not take care of myself consistently, only when I was depressed and never when manic of which I refused to give up alcohol. During a dangerous mixed psychotic episode 3 years ago I found this community and met others like myself and slowly began to take my illness seriously.

I returned to the doctors telling my story of how I thought I was a victim of mind control and that I was being followed by governmental agencies who were trying to harness my prophetic abilities. I acted on these beliefs and was not safe although I did not tell my doctor that part. I, honestly, did not realize how sick I was. As of to date (3/2015), I am now stable on medications, I haven't had paranoid thoughts for one whole year, I sleep well most of the time, I no longer drink but have not had much luck finding an affordable therapist.

I am blessed to be married to a patient and loving husband of 30 plus years, and that is therapeutic to some degree. I am physically healthy unlike many with mental illness. My fury companions help my anxiety. I need humor, a strong spiritual life, daily routine, healthy lifestyle and medications. I have learned more about my mental illness with the support of others like me and through the information provided here on this website.

There, but for the grace of God, go I.

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Darling pic. I may need to borrow that fuzzy blanket it's getting cold here.
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