Welcome to the board. You may feel that this illness has taken everything from you but it hasn't. You can manage this illness and not let it manage you by continuing to work closely with your doctors and therapist and by educating yourself and your family about bipolar disorder. Support groups like this one can help too. A good book for you and your husband to read together is The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide by David J. Miklowitz, PhD.
I don't worry about feeling normal I just want to feel good and be able to function well.View Thread
It's unfortunate that your husband had to stab himself to get help and be diagnosed. Separate yourself, physically, from your husband's raging if you can because your post gives the impression that he could be dangerous to both himself and you. Be with others as much as you can so you're not so isolated.
If your husband is willing to see a psychologist and take medications then he will eventually turn from his denial and his mental health will improve, but that doesn't mean you have to take his abuse while he is trying to get well. You are doing right to continue with your therapy and education so you can take care of yourself.View Thread
I can relate to the Seroquel weight gain. Depressed if you don't take it, stuck and irritable if you do. I quit taking it.
My husband and I have different work schedules and it is difficult to make time to talk so our passing conversations are often impulses where we try to control each other because our lives seem to be going in different directions and that's when the little jabbing comments surface. Do you have some way to let go of your anger in a constructive way?
We all need to make time for daily self-nurturing activities (other than eating) according to my therapist so we don't suffer for that weekend get-a-way. Your wife should not object to that. Also, try to find a self-nurturing activity that you can share with your wife that will give you both a chance to talk.
Sounds like both you and your wife need to get away. Take a break.View Thread
I quit smoking 8 years ago after smoking for 30 years. I tried to quit countless times with patches, prayer and will power. I finally quit with patches and Wellbutrin and admitted that I would be just as anxious with a cigarette as without one, but I think what really helped me this time was joining a gym working out and swimming and I really don't know how to swim but any kind of movement in the water makes the lungs work really hard. After I finished swimming the last thing I wanted to do was smoke and I worked off a lot of irritability.
Bottom line you really have to want to quit and constantly tell yourself about the benefits like all of the money you will save, your clothes will smell better and you WILL feel better—you will feel like a cleaner person. Ask yourself if you can really afford to smoke AND drive. Also, tell your friends and family not to smoke around you. Good Luck!View Thread
I think you are a very strong person for going back to the doctors for help and not trying to handle it alone yourself. There are many who can relate to your not wanting to take medications period, but when cycling makes us sick that doesn't mean that taking our medications should turn us into a zombies. We have lives to lead. Like you, I told my doctor up front two years ago when I started back on medications that I would draw the line at two medications, three at the absolute most.
I hope you don't mind my asking, what medications are you taking and what are your reasons for taking each one? You know yourself better than the doctor (or me) but it doesn't make sense that your doctor starts you on two more medications just because you can't sleep. Does your doctor make other recommendations like exercise, meditation, nutrition?View Thread
The assignment was for me to think of something positive I can say to myself, a positive affirmation, to stop my negative thinking. It has to be something I believe. So far, I have come up with "I have the courage to be myself" which I chose because I often compare myself to others. I need to come up with one for worrying. The other part of my homework is to pick 5 things that are self-nurturing, without stress, that use all five senses. She gave me a long list of self-nurturing activities and I associated some form of stress with almost all of them so it was almost impossible to come up with my favorites but I managed: Listen to music; play with and hold my dog (some stress she jumps a lot); yoga (some stress being overweight); gaze at the stars; watch a movie; and, grow a garden (some stress afraid of snakes). I can make a list or be creative and do something like make objects that will remind me of these things. I even thought of searching for ring tones and notifications that I can use with my phone that remind me of these things. I'm trying not to over think it. View Thread
Hi Debbie, These sound like positive affirmations. My therapy homework this week is to come up with a positive affirmation for myself. I asked my therapist if my affirmation had to be something I should feel today or want to feel tomorrow and she said that was a good question and then she answered that it has to be something I believe. This is going to be a hard one for me because I might have to focus on my positive characteristics in order to believe in myself which I am not used to doing since I don't trust myself.
Be kind to yourself. That's a good one but only easily said for many. Hugs View Thread
Dear Techster10, Welcome and sorry to hear you are facing such difficult struggles with your mom and dad. If your mom was diagnosed bipolar just recently and she has never taken medications or has not been in therapy then she must have been having problems for years. You might have to think about the things you have done in the past that did and did not work with her (and your dad) and go from there. If she is a danger to herself and others then it is your loving duty to report her to the police. Her age does not exclude her from being responsible for her actions. Maybe if she keeps going back the judge will grant her a longer stay in the hospital so she can get some real help. If there is another hearing then continue to speak out to the judge about the hardship it has caused your family. You may have to use tough love with your mom at 67.
You can feel better though it may take some time. I have been tried many medications too and, finally, feel pretty good with the last medication change I made 3 months ago. Are you in therapy? A combination of medication and therapy can help you to feel better and support groups are helpful. View Thread