My entire life, I have felt like I've slowly but surely been going insane. I've thought it was just me. I've thought I was a drama queen. I've felt out of control, like two different warring people. I've been through so many things. I've not known how or why. I feel like a tragedy magnet and now i'm a person made up of consequences, I've become nothing but a long list of symptoms and acronyms. At least these things let me know that it all isn't in my head...but it is my head. Now what? I have Bipolar Disorder, ADD...I've dealt with PTSD, greif, impenatrable sadness, rage, confusing joy, countless other symptoms of a buncha things. I'm a mess. I've wanted out and I've tried and failed because I'm here for a reason. I've tried miserably to cope, but you're not coping if you're a danger to yourself. My OCD tendencies are my way of trying to gain control of myself, my circumstances, my surroundings. NOONE GETS IT. NOONE UNDERSTANDS THAT I'M NOT MAKING ANY OF THIS UP! I didn't choose to be a mess. I'M TIRED OF BEING IN HELL. Oh well, I'm stuck this way. I haven't any medical insurance. So great, I know what's wrong with me...now what? I want someone to fix me. I hope that by chatting here I'm proven wrong...I feel alone, but I don't want to be.View Thread