This is most likely gonna be drawn out and all over the place cause I'm not thinking clearly. I do apologize
So it's been two weeks I've been slowly going down hill, after three solid days in bed I finally drug myself to the dr. With my dh by my side. My anxiety is also REALLY bad.. However the panic attacks are mostly at bed time, soon as my body starts to shut down my legs start to tremble, I'm very jerky, once that starts I go into panic mode. They last anywhere from ten minutes to a hour. Some are worse than others, but none are pleasant. Two weeks ago I had a severe one while at my friends. By the time she got me home it was the worst I ever had. I didn't think I was gonna make it home. The 15 minute drive was torture.(no I wasn't driving) I was shaking, short of breath (gasping for air) sweat pouring, then started vomiting, and hives started across my chest. My body aches after them from my muscles constricting. My dh try's his best at night to comfort me. Majority of the time I curl myself up in the fetal position and he just try's to form himself around me and hold me telling me I'm "ok."
He try's to get me to talk, but nothing comes out. I just wish I knew what triggers them, and why at bed time?
I feel horrible for my dh. He tries his best to understand. But how can I expect him to fully understand, when I don't understand it either. I don't mean to lash out at him or take it out on him. He deserves better. He really is a great guy for putting up with me when I'm like this
Anyway .....after going to the dr telling him about the past two weeks, three days in bed, mood swings, irritability, crying, racing thoughts/suicidal thoughts, panic, feeling worthless, poor appetite, dramatic weight loss.... he added buspar to my cocktail. So I'm back up to six meds.
Any input on why anxiety is coming at bedtime?
Any feed back on buspar?
Anything would be greatly appreciated, I can't handle feeling this way day after day AFTER DAY!!!!!View Thread