Hi, I just joined and this is my first post. Tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of being laid off. In this past year, I haven't been able to make it successfully through interviews because of my lack of concentration, problems with memory re-call, and anxiety. I freeze up or draw blanks to questions. I try to rehearse but that doesn't help. It's humiliating.
I was re-diagnosed from bipolar II to bipolar I in this time, after hospitalization for a suicide attempt. I had worked in high stress jobs in computer software. I've considered looking at other fields, but at this point, I don't feel like I could hold ANY job. I am plagued with thoughts of worthlessness, and each interview reinforces that thought -- despite my cognitive therapy.
This cycle is exhausting and perpetual. Any advice out there would be greatly appreciated.View Thread
Thank you for your response. SS has scheduled a psych evaluation for me this coming weekend to determine if I qualify for disability. I know it's their job to deny benefits, whether I qualify or not. I'll just be myself, but who knows what that will be like in a week.
I was on the same meds before, and I found that the welbutrin and trazedone, while stifling manic episodes, made me more depressed. Your situation certainly is not helping.
It's easy to say 'surround yourself with people who are supportive' and 'stay away from those who aren't'. But feeling dependent economically makes that kind of advice sound unachievable. Try to think long term and make a plan to get away -- your therapist can help you develop skills to save money and get to a place where you can support yourself and be free from a husband who is clearly not supportive and is a negative influence on your path to getting better. You can do it! MickView Thread
I went through the same type of thing back in February. My stay in the hospital turned out to be a good thing for me too. Not only did I learn about my illness, but for the first time (as far as I know), I was around people who shared the same illness and experiences. I didn't feel as alone. Good luck! MickView Thread
Thanks Matt! Yes, I have applied and the application is pending. Unfortunately, I'm actually worried about succeeding there; e.g., what will my family and friends think, etc. I know that shouldn't matter, but it does.