I'm wondering what the usual tapering looks like for Cymbalta. I've been on 90 mg of it for the past 6 month and want to taper off it. Yes I've talked with my pdoc and he assures me we will soon, just wondering how long this process will take. I've heard the horror stories and have tried it once cold turkey, that is why I'm trying to do it the right way. Just wanting to know what to expect. What do you do in your practice?View Thread
First off I know you won't be responding anymore and I understand your decision. I never intended to "fish hook" anyone. I think I was clear from the beginning that I just needed to vent. Venting is getting something out, blowing off steam...it's not asking for advice, or sympathy or anything else. I know this is a good group so when there was a response I read it and responded. As for throwing out the "I'm going to kill myself" line I don't believe I ever said that directly. No "I'm not that lucky" isn't the same. I thought this board was a safe place to put down how I was feeling and what I was struggling with. I was wrong. I thought that many of you have struggled with thoughts of suicide and even attempted it, you'd understand that some people's mind works like this. 2 years ago I did decide to end my life, found the perfect place and had the perfect plan. I made one mistake and trusted someone I shouldn't have, and since then I've been on "suicide watch" by my family.
I never intended to hurt any of you, if i did I am truly sorry. I simply wanted to vent in a safe place with people who I thought understood what goes though our minds sometimes. My question to you is, if its too painful and your not "playing this game" why continue to read or respond? I made it clear many times I wanted to,vent and just get it off my chest. I never once asked for advice, or anything else. I did appreciate the advice given, but that was not my intention.
As for the inference that I was sitting at my computer waiting for a response each time just to respond back, that was most certainly not the case. In this day of techno everything I have web on my phone, I work online at work, and I have my iPad at home. I am usually online, and webmd also has a box you check to send you a message when there is a reply to your post. If I was quick to respond its because I have no life, no friends, and have alienated my family so when an email pops up I'm on top of it...for all my emails. And sometimes i was looking at other posts and someone posted to mine while i was there. Unlike many of you who have a husband and kids, all I have is an old dog who is ready to croak. That is my life.
I'm sorry if I offended anyone or caused them any pain. I tried to label the post correctly to avoid that. I appreciate your responses (although I never expected them), but I never forced anyone to read my postings. You chose to read them knowing what was being talked about. The blame doesn't lie in just one place. I, however will move on from here since I am not wanted and have clearly screwed up again. I wish you all nothing but the best.View Thread
While I appreciate the sentiment of your reply, the fact is that I have made sure now that its all or nothing, there will be no chance for anything in between (i.e. kidneys, brain etc)I am however postponing it a bit, thanks to (trigger) God or Devine intervention. Im not the most religious person but i prayed this morning for god to give me a sign that things were going to change. God sent me a sign today that told me I need to think harder about this. And so I will but not for long.
Like the story of my life; even to the end I am trying to please everyone else in spite of me living in hell to do it. When's it going to be my turn to do what I want? to not give a darn about others as they have done so many times to me? When do I get to be at peace? When do I get to sleep without everything hanging over my head? When can I enjoy life and not worry? I don't see any of that happening anytime soon.
As I've said before I appreciate everyone's replies and trying to help, as my first post was titled, Vent, that really all I was looking for. But I do appreciate this group. You are all very caring.View Thread
As i said ...no such luck. I'm still here, went to work, saw EAP counselor who said she'd try to help coordinate between my pdoc and Tdoc & my boss. but shes gone for a week now. Meantime boss was still being tough and inflexible. I called her out in an email about what she was talking about(me) yesterday. No response. I was so drugged at work on Ativan I just stared at the computer and did some online trainings. Just waiting to get home. Am home now and 5.5 oz vodka later am ready for sleep. Time for pills and sleep.
Thanks for your words of wisdom and , you tried your best. But anyone who knows me knows I am stubborn and this is something I want to do, just have to work my way up to the amounts that will do something. Happy weekend all!View Thread
I appreciate the post but honestly you've got it wrong. I know I have to work on me as.much as meds have to work on me too. I feel I have been, but when I'm this tired...of everything...what is there to continuing to fight for? (Rhetorical, not asking for a response). I nearly wanted to vent what had just happened as documentation for my family someday. Sure I had hopes I might not wake up, but I'm not a lucky enough person to get hit by a truck, or have a terminal illness, or accidentally fall of a roller coaster ride. Luck is only with me when I don't want it.
So I go to work today only to hear thru the walls the boss making comments about me. Comments like "what does she think she's doing shock therapy?" Then several other girls in that office were laughing and playing off that. This is how my life is going. This is why it needs to end. If the pdoc is saying he's done all he can do with meds and the rest is up to me, then I choose not to.
So again tonight...I write. 3shots vodka, already at 2mg Ativan heading for my third, 200mg trazadone and 450 lithium. Hoping tonight might be it. I might actually get lucky. If not ill just keep upping it until I do.
Thanks for trying to help, but sometimes a person just needs to vent and walk away.