Please call 911, your doctor or therapist or anyone else, or a crisis line .
You're right in that depression is very difficult to deal with - and it's the depression that's telling you that death is the solution - but you don't have to do it alone and treatment can help. Please get the help you need and deserve.
Take steps to keep yourself safe. Don't let the depression win.View Thread
And sometimes we'll add a trigger warning to posts which haven't otherwise been noticed as such.
This community is very considerate of everyone else but sometimes those are missed and it was made VERY clear to us by the members on our mental health boards that we needed to do more to protect the members, hence the bright red trigger warnings that cannot be missed.
Re the confusion... join the club, Bpcookie! View Thread
I hope you'll start a new discussion about what you're going through now so others can find/read your post and support you.
To do that, hold your cursor over the orange Post Now button on the upper right and choose 'Discussion' from the drop down menu which appears. Fill in the subject line and body of the message (you can ignore the poll part) and Submit. View Thread