
Lost it at work [Trigger]
I lost it a bit at work this morning. Last night/this morning I woke up around one, and...
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I lost it a bit at work this morning. Last night/this morning I woke up around one, and from one a.m. to four a.m. I had constant dreams about self-harming. I woke up shaky and jittery and got through the early morning all right, but when I got to work I started freaking out. I got so jumpy and jittery, like there was an electrical cord plugged into my spine and all of my nerves. I felt helpless and started crying and it stopped almost as suddenly as it started, a minute later.
I took my meds early and it calmed it a bit, but now I feel empty and bruised and am debating asking to go home early. I feel I need to, but then on the other hand I keep thinking 'it's okay - I'm okay - I'll be fine...'
Ugh.
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I took my meds early and it calmed it a bit, but now I feel empty and bruised and am debating asking to go home early. I feel I need to, but then on the other hand I keep thinking 'it's okay - I'm okay - I'll be fine...'
Ugh.
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Reply: Really Random & Totally For Fun ???'s
1. What's the hardest thing you've ever done? let my son go.[br>[br>2. If you were...
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1. What's the hardest thing you've ever done? let my son go.[br>[br>2. If you were a car, what kind of car would you be? a canary-yellow Avalanche. vroom.[br>[br>3. If you were a city, what would you be? Kittyhawk, New York
4. If you were a movie, what would you be? Fifth Element. bwahahaha[br>[br>5. If you were a soup, what would you be? WTF? Broccoli and cheese, I guess.[br>
6. If you were a tree, what would be carved in your trunk? I wz hre[br>
7. If you were sand, what would you say to people on your beach? get the *bleep* off my face *bleep bleep*[br>
8. If you were a house, what would you say to the people living inside you?[br>Don't yell at each other, in anger or otherwise.
9. If you were a pebble, what would you say to a little kid throwing you into a pond?[br>Hold on tight, kid. It's gonna get wild.
10. If you were an animal, what would you be? Tiger. duh.[br>
11. If you could travel through time and meet yourself when you were a kid, what would you say? Just hang on. No matter what, just hang on. It's worth it, I promise.[br>[br>12. If a bartender named a drink after you, what would it be called? What would be in it? Don't know, stumped on that one.[br>[br>13. If you had to eliminate one thing in your life, what would it be? my ex. harr[br>[br>14. If your house was on fire and you could only save one thing, what would it be? my BP journal
[br>15. What did you want to be when you were little and are you that now? a cat, and dude, no.
[br>16. If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be? Sylvester the cat [theme, anyone?>[br>[br>17. What do people like about you the most? The least? my quirky personality. To both.[br>
18. Should the guy always pay for a date? No, only when I don't have the money... lol[br>[br>19. What would be the title of your autobiography? The Darkest Shining Star[br>
20. If you had one superhero ability, what would it be? Ability to create and wield electricity/lightning.
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4. If you were a movie, what would you be? Fifth Element. bwahahaha[br>[br>5. If you were a soup, what would you be? WTF? Broccoli and cheese, I guess.[br>
6. If you were a tree, what would be carved in your trunk? I wz hre[br>
7. If you were sand, what would you say to people on your beach? get the *bleep* off my face *bleep bleep*[br>
8. If you were a house, what would you say to the people living inside you?[br>Don't yell at each other, in anger or otherwise.
9. If you were a pebble, what would you say to a little kid throwing you into a pond?[br>Hold on tight, kid. It's gonna get wild.
10. If you were an animal, what would you be? Tiger. duh.[br>
11. If you could travel through time and meet yourself when you were a kid, what would you say? Just hang on. No matter what, just hang on. It's worth it, I promise.[br>[br>12. If a bartender named a drink after you, what would it be called? What would be in it? Don't know, stumped on that one.[br>[br>13. If you had to eliminate one thing in your life, what would it be? my ex. harr[br>[br>14. If your house was on fire and you could only save one thing, what would it be? my BP journal
[br>15. What did you want to be when you were little and are you that now? a cat, and dude, no.
[br>16. If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be? Sylvester the cat [theme, anyone?>[br>[br>17. What do people like about you the most? The least? my quirky personality. To both.[br>
18. Should the guy always pay for a date? No, only when I don't have the money... lol[br>[br>19. What would be the title of your autobiography? The Darkest Shining Star[br>
20. If you had one superhero ability, what would it be? Ability to create and wield electricity/lightning.
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Reply: ABILIFY for BIPOLAR!!!
Skyp, I had some really negative results to it, too, including weird twitches and sleep...
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Skyp, I had some really negative results to it, too, including weird twitches and sleep paralysis. =(
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Reply: Mellow Monday Daily Post - May contain Triggers
Weather: dreary and rainy Sleep: insomnia Mood: improved Plans: work and then home...
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Weather: dreary and rainy
Sleep: insomnia
Mood: improved
Plans: work and then home again, home again; might have a friend coming over tonight for a write-in.
Oh, and the official truth is in! I am NOT preggers. Started my womanly time of the month this morning. Woot!
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Sleep: insomnia
Mood: improved
Plans: work and then home again, home again; might have a friend coming over tonight for a write-in.
Oh, and the official truth is in! I am NOT preggers. Started my womanly time of the month this morning. Woot!
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Reply: Poetry
Two more poems, about people I met in 3South: = Joli = She smiles and it is real,...
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Two more poems, about people I met in 3South:
= Joli =
She smiles and
it is real,
genuine.
But the marks
of her suicide
are appalling
and ugly
and sad,
though her smile
is Beautiful.
= Detox =
They are like sisters
in misery, in pain,
forever linked in my mind.
One and then the other
equals both, together.
I watch as they mumble,
pull in tight,
tremble and hunger and weep,
And I think I know why
they choose the drugs
if this is how hard they fall.
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= Joli =
She smiles and
it is real,
genuine.
But the marks
of her suicide
are appalling
and ugly
and sad,
though her smile
is Beautiful.
= Detox =
They are like sisters
in misery, in pain,
forever linked in my mind.
One and then the other
equals both, together.
I watch as they mumble,
pull in tight,
tremble and hunger and weep,
And I think I know why
they choose the drugs
if this is how hard they fall.
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Reply: Poetry
= Don't Change = I want to hear you say it just once: Don't Change. I want to hear you...
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= Don't Change =
I want to hear you say it
just once:
Don't Change.
I want to hear you say
It's okay
and
I love you
and
You're Perfect
and
It'll be okay.
Just once, I want to hear it:
You're everything I need;
Don't Change.
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I want to hear you say it
just once:
Don't Change.
I want to hear you say
It's okay
and
I love you
and
You're Perfect
and
It'll be okay.
Just once, I want to hear it:
You're everything I need;
Don't Change.
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Poetry
= Admitted = I sit here, unbent, collapsed in my chair and in my soul. My ankles wrap...
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= Admitted =
I sit here, unbent,
collapsed in my chair and
in my soul.
My ankles wrap around the
metal of the chair;
otherwise my feet will slide
and I will follow
From one collapsed, to a
puddle on the floor.
I am tired but not allowed to move.
Time drags, pulling me along behind it.
.... wrote this the second time I was admitted.
ps. Feel free to add your own poetry to this thread.
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I sit here, unbent,
collapsed in my chair and
in my soul.
My ankles wrap around the
metal of the chair;
otherwise my feet will slide
and I will follow
From one collapsed, to a
puddle on the floor.
I am tired but not allowed to move.
Time drags, pulling me along behind it.
.... wrote this the second time I was admitted.
ps. Feel free to add your own poetry to this thread.

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Reply: Mood charting
I think that's all MedHelp is, actually - just trackers. It's super easy to join and add...
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I think that's all MedHelp is, actually - just trackers. It's super easy to join and add trackers, then add info. My trackers:
http://www.medhelp.org/personal_pages/show/368191?personal_page_id=368191
=D
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http://www.medhelp.org/personal_pages/show/368191?personal_page_id=368191
=D
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Reply: Thankful Thursday Daily Post - May Contain Trigger...
Weather: dark and wet and stormy Sleep: normal Mood: pretty darn good. Plans: stay...
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Weather: dark and wet and stormy
Sleep: normal
Mood: pretty darn good.
Plans: stay late at work, until the meeting tonight, that will last until about 7:30. From then on, some coworkers are taking me out to a birthday dinner.
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Sleep: normal
Mood: pretty darn good.
Plans: stay late at work, until the meeting tonight, that will last until about 7:30. From then on, some coworkers are taking me out to a birthday dinner.
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Mood charting
Does anyone regularly chart their moods, and how? Do you use a program on the computer,...
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Does anyone regularly chart their moods, and how? Do you use a program on the computer, just a journal, a chart you print up ...?
I use MedHelp.com, have for a long while now. It has a tracker for moods but also separate ones you can do for exercise, sleep, migraines, etc, and its free. There's even an option to print it out, if I need to take it in to my doc.
And, it lets me friend others, so I can check their trackers too and see how they're doing.
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I use MedHelp.com, have for a long while now. It has a tracker for moods but also separate ones you can do for exercise, sleep, migraines, etc, and its free. There's even an option to print it out, if I need to take it in to my doc.

And, it lets me friend others, so I can check their trackers too and see how they're doing.
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