Sleep: not much too restless worried about catching the bus on time to take me to work.
Mood: anxious and irritable
Plans: work and wait on a call about my glasses today. Got a hold of them yesterday and they said they need to talk to the lab person to see if they have the lens needed to make the glasses. I just pray that it works out. i really not ready to go back to work today either.
[Trigger] I had my therapy appt a few days ago and she was talking about EMDR and how it can help people who experienced trauma or ptsd.
I was raped last year by the apt's security guard who was harassing me until he got what he wanted. I still can't get it out of my mind and its like replaying over and over. I just wish it was gone but I just rather die to feel the pain.
Have any of you tried EMDR? I am curious how did it help. If it doesn't then I am not wasting my time on it.
My goal is to get better but seems I keep going backwards. It is frustrating.
I am bored and not ready to go back to work on Thurs. Wish there were more things to do but there isn't any. I guess I am feeling down because I am bored. Still waiting to hear about my glasses and getting annoyed they haven't called yet. I just want it taken care of.
I guess I will go take a nap while my ham steak defrost. I am having ham and beans with cornbread going with it.
Plans: not sure. I start work on Thurs and am not ready to go back to work. Still waiting eye doc's office to call about my glasses and am getting annoyed they taking so long to give me the cost so I can pay for it. I know it will be expensive but it will be worth it.