Mood: not so good. I have not been good about hiding my feelings at home. which makes me feel worse.
Plans: went to the gym, did yard work, will make dinner and watch baseball tonight.
My computer is acting up. So, If I am not around for a few days...that will be why! I think it needs a new video card and I don't know if I can do that. Plus, my desktop is a mammoth machine and I can barely lift it to take it anywhere to be fixed. Oh...and no joke...I walked into a door today...nice bump and bruise on my head. sheesh.
I am thankful for the nice weather and the very small amount of gardening I got done today! Hope everyone is doing well.View Thread
Sleep: pretty good till birds at my feeder woke me up at about 5am (dang Blue Jays!).
Mood: overall, ok but a bit overwhelmed/resentful. My head is "noisy" but I am just pushing through and as Debbie said...trying to focus on the postive.
Plans: Here's what I have done: gone to the gym, raked (even though I am not supposed to), cleaned the grill, bathed the dog, vacuumed, started making Mother's Day cards. Will be making dinner and possibly doing laundry tonight. Whew. I rarely have days like this when I have the motivation/energy to do much, so trying to make the most of it. I am resentful because the rest of the family has done almost NOTHING to help. But of course that is my fault because I don't yell or nag about it.
Debbie: I will continue to focus on the positive! Beautiful weather for one.View Thread
Try to hang in there. I am also in a small town and know the frustrations from that. Everyone is different but wellbutrin was a wonder for me. After trying several other meds, finally one that worked! I have been on it for several years. I will tell you that for me, it was a very suble change at first. One day I realized I was actually making dinner. I was up and in the kitchen cooking instead of throwing together something quick for my kids. It seems minor but it was a turning point. Good luck...and let us know how you are doing.View Thread
Wow Debbie. That is very well put. I feel that way too...and it is hard to express it. Most of the time I feel like I just give up or give in to not thinking or feeling. I swear, just earlier (and yesterday...and the day before), I was thinking...I HATE my mind. I hate how it works or doesn't work. I feel betrayed too but right now, I feel like my whole body betrays me (shoulder injury, thryoid problems, weight gain). IF I can ground myself enough to focus just a bit, sometimes if I start writing, I can open up that way. Sorry, I am not meaning to make this about me. Just what you wrote touched me. I will be interested to hear what your tdoc says (if you want to share that is). Thanks for sharing. Hugs!View Thread
If you feel this coming, there might be a way to avoid it. I am on edge myself and it would be so easy for me to give in. I am trying to refocus and think about other things, go easy on myself. Find someone to talk to.
(((Cookie))). You know you can always share here. Sometimes just venting helps. I hope the trip to your step mom's goes ok. I like what Debbie said about focusing on your step mom and making her heart smile. Well, I can't imagine anyone NOT smiling if you were near. And remember...you can't control or change your siblings so try to just keep that in mind and let go of the stress. I hope you can do that. Thinking of you. xoView Thread
Plans: went to the gym, have Physical Therapy this afternoon, then need to do some errands.
Melly, the rain sounds like it is getting old. Are you in danger of any flooding? Hope you are safe.
Cookie, I am sorry to hear you are struggling. Can you do something nice for yourself? Work on your crafts, go for a walk or are you in too much pain? I know where my mood would be if it weren't for my oldest son. He dropped out of the college this winter and just sits home. I get a lot of grief about it from the family because I don't push him more. But things happen for a reason and he is here to talk with me and help me without even knowing how much he helps me. Anyhoo...I hope your day improves. Thinking of you and sending hugs...xoView Thread