dibbits0530

Joined: 02/05/2010
My Story:
May be triggers in here.
My story changes from time to time. At this point my story evolved over a period of about 50 years. There have been many issues that I have buried over the years. Some issues I have just recently found out about. I have always had suspicions about them and as of late, I have found so many issues that have been left untended too. I was diagnosed with Bipolar at the age of 35 and now I am not so sure if I was misdiagnosed. Something new added to the mix is suicide ideation and suicidal tendencies. Funny how the Mental Healthcare Community does not wish to label what I have. For now, it is Psychosis NOS. So they be clueless. I'm ok with that.

On the flip side, I have some back pain issues. Spondylolisthesis, Foraminal Stenosis, Degenerative Disc Disease and Radicular Syndrome. The physical pain that this causes makes it impossible for me to work for more than 5-10 minutes at a time. This not only is a physical pain but emotional and spiritual pain for me as well for I have always felt useless. I just wonder if my back pain could be linked to my mood disorders. I'm sure they are but how does one get past all that.
As of August 2010, I have been told I do not have Bipolar but mood, anxiety and depression disorders. In the same week of writing this, my latest and greatest claim to fame stems from a neck that looks worse than my back. I am now working on it as I look like Uncle Fester from the Addams Family. In PT there has been an immediate release of pressure from the neck, back and leg. I lived in Homeless Shelter for a year and have re-found myself as I was surely lost for all these many years.

Update to anyone who's watching. 2014...been admitted into PSIU 5 times in 11 years. 4 times in three years. Two times in 6 months. My operating system seems to be waning.

I have a little buddy Mr. Bubbles Magee (pictured in my profile). He is nearly nine. Rescue dog. Not sure how many times he has been to the VET. No local record of him anywhere. I do know his pelvis was repaired. He is my saving grace.

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Like this mercy. Tell your husband "Obsession is a perfume, I only talk it out until I...More
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You may not have Bipolar at all. Bipolar use to be a catchall for mood swings. Because...More
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Hi Kat. (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS) Bipolar comes in various forms Bipolar I , Bipolar II,...More
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I find we can be our own greatest ally or our own greatest nightmare. How many of us...More
Take from each day, all that it offers you, return to it, nothing less than the very best that you can offer.
Posted by dibbits0530

Take the Poll

Self talk poll
Objective responses
No right or wrong answers
Be honest
Be objective
  • Do I talk to myself: (yes) (no)
  • Do I discuss things: (yes) (no)
  • Do I advise myself: (yes) (no)
  • Is my advice good: (yes) (no)
  • Do I take my advice: (yes) (no)
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I've seen this with with other pups as well. When my Westie Magee topples what ever he...More
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Thanks Cookie Sadly, this has been at least 4 years in the making, perhaps longer....More
Take from each day, all that it gives to you, return only to it, nothing less than the very best that you have to offer.
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Reply: long term mental health care. !!POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!...
Love your signature Debbie. I'm sure my therapist will be saddened about the idea of...More
Take from each day, all that it gives to you, return only to it, nothing less than the very best that you have to offer.
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Reply: long term mental health care. !!POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!...
Yes I do Debbie. I see him on Wednesday. I am going to seek the help of another as well...More
Take from each day, all that it gives to you, return only to it, nothing less than the very best that you have to offer.
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Yeah he is teaching this old dog new tricks
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Thanks kitty this rough go has actually been my every waking moment (perhaps...More
Take from each day, all that it gives to you, return only to it, nothing less than the very best that you have to offer.
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