dibbits0530

Joined: 02/05/2010
My Story:
May be triggers in here.
My story changes from time to time. At this point my story evolved over a period of about 50 years. There have been many issues that I have buried over the years. Some issues I have just recently found out about. I have always had suspicions about them and as of late, I have found so many issues that have been left untended too. I was diagnosed with Bipolar at the age of 35 and now I am not so sure if I was misdiagnosed. Something new added to the mix is suicide ideation and suicidal tendencies. Funny how the Mental Healthcare Community does not wish to label what I have. For now, it is Psychosis NOS. So they be clueless. I'm ok with that.

On the flip side, I have some back pain issues. Spondylolisthesis, Foraminal Stenosis, Degenerative Disc Disease and Radicular Syndrome. The physical pain that this causes makes it impossible for me to work for more than 5-10 minutes at a time. This not only is a physical pain but emotional and spiritual pain for me as well for I have always felt useless. I just wonder if my back pain could be linked to my mood disorders. I'm sure they are but how does one get past all that.
As of August 2010, I have been told I do not have Bipolar but mood, anxiety and depression disorders. In the same week of writing this, my latest and greatest claim to fame stems from a neck that looks worse than my back. I am now working on it as I look like Uncle Fester from the Addams Family. In PT there has been an immediate release of pressure from the neck, back and leg. I lived in Homeless Shelter for a year and have re-found myself as I was surely lost for all these many years.

Update to anyone who's watching. 2014...been admitted into PSIU 5 times in 11 years. 4 times in three years. Two times in 6 months. My operating system seems to be waning.

I have a little buddy Mr. Bubbles Magee (pictured in my profile). He is nearly nine. Rescue dog. Not sure how many times he has been to the VET. No local record of him anywhere. I do know his pelvis was repaired. He is my saving grace.

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Reply: A Year Without Work & Hopeless
Perfect Mick Just being whom you are is a first step. My psych eval was a bust. I was...More
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12 days to knee replacement (trigger?)
yes yes yes...so what does it all have to do with the BP board? Stress stress...More
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Reply: A Year Without Work & Hopeless
hi mick THIS MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS if it is any comfort to you, i am celebrating 14...More
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Reply: Finally Friday Daily Bipolar Post/ poss. triggers
Hey cookie do you always ask questions you have answers to? just kidding. is it true...More
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Reply: Chronic Brain Damage plus parents with bipolar
I am an armchair expert so don't quote me here. the brain is a highly effective area...More
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Reply: Hello-Possible Trigger
Hi Penny I haven't been on here alot over the past 3 years. I am glad you were able to...More
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Reply: Help!
the biggest problem with SSDI is getting there. for most applicants a wait of 6 months...More
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Reply: living untreated
is their such a thing as untreated? you treat the symptom in your thoughts, your words...More
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Reply: biploar or ADHD
a common scenario for the BP'er. conflict exists simply as an historical norm. the...More
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Reply: TRIGGER: For any faith; for atheists, there is ho...
dare i ask about your husband the pastor. no i don't to go there. people who live...More
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