I have come to the painful realization that I am just too different from most people who post. The gap, for me is too wide to bridge. I think differently, I respond to my illness differently, I ask questions differently, I'm just different. be well all . take good care of each other. I'm discontinuing this on-line experiment and calling it a, as we say in research, "negative study".
I am finally off the 800 mg of seroquel I was taking for almost a decade and it has totally been replaced with 8 mg of Risperdal. It's been about a week since the complete switch was completed. This is the first major medication change I have had in ten years and I do not know what to expect. My Dr. G says we'll deal with any difficulties as they come up. What can I expect going from a high dose of seroquel to a high dose of risperdal? Any insights Dr. G?
No manic symptoms, no psychotic symptoms and no depressive symptoms so far. My sleep is disrupted even more than usual though. I guess Risperdal doesn't have the same sedating effect as Seroquel. I never realized how much it played a role in me getting any sleep at all. That wasn't it's intended purpose. It's intended purpose was to be used as an anti-psychotic, which it succeeded at doing until this past year pretty well. I've posted a lot about my rapid cycling bipolar 1 disorder with psychosis struggles on this site. I'm hoping this drug change helps that.
I came to the defense of a colleague of mine who was unjustly criticized by our director. The comments pushed me over my tolerance threshold and I felt I needed to speak out on her behalf. Somebody explain to me why a boss would lash out at a really good employee for no real reason. Any criticism she would want to make she could have made without the tongue lashing. It was cruel and my colleague was devastated. I am sooooo angry for her I can't even think. My director was the topic in therapy this afternoon and my psychologist helped me work out a very sound action plan. I'm still angry but at least I feel like I can have some influence on the situation. People I work with and like are being needlessly hurt. That brings out the Jewish mother in me.
Anyone else tilting at windmills at the moment?View Thread
LOL, it's a reference to the novel Don Quixote. He ran around the Spanish country-side tilting at windmills (a fight with a lance on horse back) because he believed they were actually monsters that threatened people. The phrase refers to taking up passionately often hopeless causes.
I'm working with a my psychologist to limit the financial damage I do. We have a plan for my checking account, debit card, and credit accounts. I closed my credit cards down years ago, but I still have access to lines of credit. I'm banned from using my checkbook without consent and I'm limited as to how I can use my debit card. If I'm manic I have to turn my debit card over to her as well as my checkbook. I'm not allowed to go on-line, shop in stores, buy gifts. I definitely cannot buy plane tickets. My psychiatrist thinks he can get my last plane ticket refunded if I want him to draft a letter to the airline. He said he'd be more than happy to do that. The airline may never let me fly again, I fear.
More than the money is the very real concern on everyone's parts that I will end up in a foreign country psychotic, manic and in jail. I have to turn over my passport to my treatment team as well. It's a little like being a child but right now I need to be on a very short leash. At least without a passport I cannot physically get to another country.