I was diagnosed with bpd around 1993, I have been treated and institutionalized that same yr. I have been on countless, medications. Right now I'm on paroxetine 40mg a day, I'm not sure if it is helping as I'm also on strong meds for cronic pian. I move around allot and told my dr. about my diagnoses from before. My Dr. seems to think that was wrong and that I am fine. I talk about my not trusting, and my past and present, and my anger issues but she just doesn't believe, that, that is my problem. I have had and still have most of the behaviors, but try not to dewell on them. As you well know that doesn't always work. I often ask my better half what is wrong with me, and he says there is nothing wrong. I can't seem to hang on to friendships. I isolate myself and now can't go out on my own. I'm lonely and angry with everything in my life except for Brian he has gone through allot with me. I am 58, and have absolutetly no family they have all deserted me. Its been ten years. since I have seen my daughters, and 30 since I have seen my siblings. Both of my parents are dead my mom died when I was 3. My dad in 1986. No lose there. So i try to believe I'm okay and some days I do.