I've always always had depersonalization invading my life. I don't think I realized how much it has dictated my life. (I did a lot of bad attention ggrabbing actions unwittingly in an attempt to feel SOMETHING). About a month ago my boyfriend was struck by a car and died. I felt some nausea and general discomfort, but very little emotions. It has become clear to me, because of this tragedy, that I am in dire need of help! I don't even have enough faith to believe anything will help, since I've had the disorder my entire life! I basically dont know what its like to have emotions like a normal person. Everything I do is based on what my intellect guesses I should respond.View Thread