I've been diagnosed with BPD. I was in therapy for years, and despite some very rough circumstances in life, I was getting much better. But since I've married my husband of 3 years, I have gotten steadily worse. He has severe depression, and major anger issues and outbursts. He is emotionally and verbally abusive. I feel like we are toxic for each other. I know that I, at least, am sliding back into BPD behavior that I hadn't had trouble with for almost 10 years.
There's more to the story, there always is. But all I want to do now is hide in my bedroom and sleep. I can't live like this for another 20 years, or however much time I have left. I don't really want to commit suicide, but I just don't want to live anymore. I hope that makes sense.View Thread
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