I feel your pain and confusion. I've had childhood traumas and sought therapy and Adult Child 12 step meetings. They were extremely helpful and healing. I'm on a personal journey now of accepting my childhood and past experiences as a gift. It is apart of what makes me ME. I also want you to check out an amazing CD series called "Your Wish is Your Command." You may find the CD helpful. I'm not sure if you will have any interest. You know your situation better than I do. However I encourage you to get a copy online. I have personally found this material to be life changing in an extremely positive way. I think you may get excited about this as well. Please follow my community on Datisha's Passion for Life and Purpose for encouragement.View Thread