My Name is Maria, and at this time I'm afraid of what's been going on with me... I don't know what is happening to me, but within the last 2 months, things have taken a scary turn, I thought my ADHD has been causing problems. So talking with my therapist got my ADHD tested, and then given adderall, at first it seemed to help the racing thoughts, and staying focused on my goals, but so did all the antidepressants... But now i'm not to sure what is going on! Last month, pain was an excuse, and I overdosed on gabapentin a form of ibuprofen but focuses on the nerves. But the truth of it was take loneliness, fear, rejection, and more consumed me, now matter how hard I tried fighting it, in the end I gave in. More recently, pain isn't my excuse, but for the past week I have been having severe mood swings, so severe I have had time loss and can't remember what happened. I woke up today feeling different, I found cut marks on my arm, and didn't know how... why... or even when! I then found notes scattered all over my sofa, one being a suicide note... I think I'm going crazy, trying to figure out what is happening, and what has happened these last 2 days, it is like channel surfing and not finding what I want... I have stopped taking my adderall today, to see if that is a cause but it is going to take time, and i feel time is against me after these past 2 days. I'm not sure what is going on with me, a fear that I'm not going to make it through another episode like that....View Thread
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