I have known for a long time something was not quite right with me. I got help late in life, saw 20 different doctors, 25 different diagnosis (sarcasm) and I've been on more medication than an elderly hospice patient. My family doctor sent me to a specialist for testing. In all this mess, no one ever had me tested for any problems. Just shoved pills down my throat.
I feel like I sit in the backseat of my mind. Like the two people in the front fight for the driver's seat. I'm severely depressed 99% of the time. The 1% percent of happiness is rare and often leaves me in a lot of pain afterwards. Then I bounce from a soft introvert, most of the time, to a violent aggressive monster that will do God knows what when pushed. I have severe codependency issues. I've been rejected all my life by everyone. Especially women, the cruel things they have done to me did not help either. I'm never good enough, for anyone.
I could go on and on about this. I go back for my test results in a couple of weeks. I just want to know if I am alone in feeling like this?View Thread
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