I KNOW I am supposed to be grateful for what I have. And I try to be. I write gratitude lists. I read inspirational books. I do "random acts of kindness". And, yet, just getting through the day with daily life's frustrations can be so hard for me. I know that other people have the frustration of the yard man not showing up... or worries about money, etc.... or the car needs washing...or the car needs brakes... But, for me, it feels overwhelming. And I know all the "right" things to do...break it down to what has to be done, use a dbt skill, call a supportive friend. But, honestly, folks I am just tired of living. I wish God would be kind and take me in a car crash... then it would be over. And this has been one of my better weeks. I really don't feel like I have anything to look forward to. But I don't want to discourage others... This too shall pass... I am just feeling frustrated.View Thread
Lauren, it takes a while to really begin to understand the implications of being BPD. I took dbt training -- which helps tremendously...but along with that I have been doing therapy...and between those two things... life DOES get better. At least for today, life is better. There are no guarantees for how life will feel tomorrow.
I got diagnosed in Jan of '12. I started out by reading everything I could find on BPD to educate myself. And, yes, it was overwhelming and scary...but I'd rather be an educated consumer.
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