I was diagnosed with BPD in Late 2013 by the same psychiatrist who originally diagnosed me with Major Depressive Disorder in 2007 and put me Fluvoxamine 200mg (back in 07).
In 2013 I was started on Lamictal 25mg (now at 150mg) and Lexapro 10mg (up to 30mg) as well as Lorazepam for my anxiety (only) when required.
I have mood cycles 3-4 times a day that are very strong and outside the normal realm of emotional shifts. I project a feeling of being angry constantly with few breaks of high happiness. I also self harm, in the form of cutting with a box cutter blade. I now have permanent scarring that refrains me from wearing short sleeve t-shirts. For example its 30 degrees Celsius here today am I'm in a long sleeve t shirt.
These monthly visits to this psychiatrist as well as the regime of medication doesn't appear to be working. At last visit he decided to take me off the Lexapro and introduce Seroquel in low dosages to begin with.
Im still trying to understand everything and I'm scared to changing things as I have lived with this for my whole life so i don't know any different. Im worried about being in the "fog" others have mentioned on here. I am also used to feeling this way that I won't know what to do with my thoughts and emotions in everyday life without it. I still want to FEEL and this is the only way i know how.
If anyone can help with suggestion or siilair situations that would be great. Also if anyone can help with my meds too.
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