I know this was written awhile back but Hawaii is doing good, my friend let me know that they moved to higher ground - no big waves and went back home to bed. Those of you on the East Coast, please be safe and I hope that if you are in need of help it will not be long before it gets to you.
Hi all and as I am saying it is a beautiful day I would need to say that depends on where you are situated right. I could not let this morning go by with sharing the wonderful morning I had with you all, mind you it is still early. I was up bright and early this morning and left my house at about 6:00 am to meet a friend to walk our two miles, it was dark outside of course but not as dark as the moon was out and guided us along as the way. I commented to my friend a couple of times how beautiful the moon was and I said - I am so happy that I do get up early and walk because I have seen some of the most beautiful sunrises and of course beautiful moons early in the morning. Regardless of what this cancer decides to do I will always have these wonderful memories to keep with me always.
I hope those who are out on the east coast are doing okay,
I am 57, I am three years out or is it four since I was diagnosed in 2009 with In Lobular, I went through chemo, then surgery then rad's, I do my best to enjoy each day at times it is not easy, I feel what is important is understanding what is important in your life, what you want out of it. It is understanding quality versus quantity. I have kept up my daily walking - I enjoyed road cycling and did a lot of that until this year when I go about once a week or when I can, I go a fair distance. As this is my second round with BC one of my biggest positives is I have survived a total of 11 years since my first diagnoses in 2001. I feel another positive is taking charge of what you want, I did what they wanted me to do both times until last year when we discovered it had metasatized to other areas when I said no more chemo, but I have had a very good year, things are stable. The journey is never easy but it is what you did along the way that is of utmost importance.
Yes it is hard to believe that our summer is over, it is cold out there today and I need to get out before the day is out to get my impatiens out before it freezes tonight. This summer most of the garden did good and I started fertilizing everything with Miracle Grow, all was doing well, then all of a sudden, no idea why but all of my petunia's up and died on me, most of the ones in my pots turned all brown. It was funny as flowers next to them just kept blooming, so unless there was a bug in them I do not know. I have already started putting my flower beds to bed for the winter, now to decide if I want to plant more blubs,
I am glad that all of your testing is over with and everything is clear, I am still plodding along, I found out last month that there are cancer lesions in my bone marrow, have been there all along, I either did not hear the Dr last year or he just failed to mention it. As it has been there all along nothing has changed in what I am taking. Still stable. Just seem more tired. With the Holidays coming I need to get busy and decide what I am going to sew. My sister was here for three weeks and I got new covering for my outdoor furniture. It was worth the cost to buy material and more cushions, I'd still be at it if she did not show up to do it.
I never did like wearing/using the fake boobs, I remember one night taking the bra and boobs off and throwing the bra and contents across the room, man did they fly. I just had an awful thought, if you are ever in a situation where you cannot get out of, just say, got to go to the toilet, take off the bra and contents and when you come out you have a pretty heavy weapon, through as hard as you can.
Like you said Roberta, as bad as it all is and as much as we hate what cancer is doing to us, we always need to look for the funny. Mind you even with my new boobs, I cannot find a cup that fits. I went from a good "C" to a funny looking "A". I am keeping them -
I truly understand how you are feeling and everyone else. It is very hard to lose our breast because of a dreaded disease. I felt as if I lost part of my womanhood. I had to wait a year before reconstruction and when I saw cleavage all I could say was thank you.
I did share a few years ago what I did before I actually went in for the surgery. My friend and I got clear labels, wrote things like so long farewell, thank you for the last forty years. Bye girls, I cannot remember all that we wrote and I stuck them to my boobs before I was wheeled into the operating room, the nurses tired to scrub the ink off until I said they were clear labels. The surgeon got a laugh out of it. .
I hope that all goes well with your surgery, take care of yourself.