I have my yearly mamogram last week, no big deal, except today they calledf and said they wanted toi do more tests..I said ok but do you know whats up.. but she was just a scheduling person..she sugjested I call the doc.. so this afternoon I finally had time... talked to the nurse.. very friendly and understanding.. she read the report to me.. here in very clinical sounlding words.. I have a "9 mm(1 cm) oval density in my right breast" ...they dot know what it is could be serious.. maybe not.. wont know till we do more tests on nov 29th..she explained a little more..that helped except.....I Hate waiting..thinkits cruel.. but we wait. anybody want to give me a ride that day? its in the morning about 9-11.
but the thing is I believe I know the answer..its weird but I walked into that test room last week thinking..they are going to find somthing this time. and they did. now it still coulsd be any thing but in my mind I again know im dieieng..., just do.. I have really mixed feeling.. and I hope I dont offend anybody or hurt anybody.. buyI believe Im dieing.. Im both scared and.. happy.... happy because(and this will explain the rest.) my husband died 8 months ago and I want to go to him. not happy cause I dont want to leave people here....I hope this is ok.hope somebody understands alittle.
at least thankyou for listening. hey I maybe wrong I may be fine.
yes I know , you are right,, Ive thought about that.. I hate it but I do know they are trying..even though many say exactly the wrong thing. I have one friend who wont say anything cause shes afraid of saying the wrong thing.I often write her and thell her she can talk .. and tell me shes the and loves me..thats what she should say.View Thread
One thing driving me crazy is all the people-friends-telling me how its probably nothing, theyve had cysts, , whatever. I keep thinking, that doesnt help me-this its my body..Ive never been here before plus my father went throuh this and it was cancer.. (not breast), and my sister died of breast cancer...my neice has it now...when these poeple tell me these things.I know their trying to help..but that doesnt... just say you understand the fear.. and your here for me...thankyou for your help. oh they did say they could get me in earlier!, now its next tues the19th?View Thread