have cried for a week. Literally every day I have cried. I was told on Oct. 3 that I have breast cancer that has spread to my lymph nodes under my left arm. It would be an untruth if I said I wasn't scared. But, my tears are mostly for my 15 year old son. I've been a single parent since day one of his life and he is far from independent (nor should he totally be at the age of 15). I fear for his future without me. It is truly just us.
I went for a PET/CT scan yesterday as well as had an MRI. Please pray that no other tumors are in my body. I'll know the stage when my breast surgeon view the scans. However, he said surgery, chemo, and radiation are definitely in my future.
How long was the span between diagnosis and surgery? My thought at the current time is "get it out".View Thread
All systems clear and ready to go! Okay...not exactly CLEAR clear. But, On October 16th, I saw my breast surgeon. My biggest fear was the breast cancer spreading to other areas of my body and being a stage 4. As I was calm on the outside but anxious on the inside, the conversation started with the surgeon stating, "Your lungs are clear, your kidneys are clear, your ______ is clear...." Honestly I stopped hearing him for a second because a breath of fresh air went through my body. I am going to live!!!
Yes, I still have breast cancer. And, yes it did spread to one lymph node under my arm...making me a Stage 2B. But that's it! Maybe I shouldn't say that's it...because breast cancer IS breast cancer. But, I feel truly relieved and blessed. Blessed because I skip doctor's appointments, mammograms, and such. I am so grateful that God put it in my spirit to get physicals because my cancer is an agressive cancer. My breast surgeon said the rate of growth is between 80% -90%. Today, I asked my oncologist what does aggressive really mean as in time periods. He said within a few months, the tumor would have probably doubled.
Okay then...that's good enough for me...I guess I'm off to chemotherapy. Which starts the 29th by the way. A little nervous...yes. Downright scared...no. I'm in good spirits because I've been blessed to have it found before it was too late.
I'm scheduled for eight rounds of chemotherapy on a bi-weekly basis (ending in February), surgery (probably in March), and radiation (I'm estimating May and June).
Rachel67 writes, "I pray that your report not only gives you some much-needed answers, but that it will show that treatment will be most successful and, therefore, might reassure you a bit that you and your son's future together will be long and lovely!! I can only imagine how that will alleviate some of your greatest fears!".....Yes, that will definitely alleviate my greatest fear!
I received a call yesterday from my surgeon's office. I have an appointment on Tuesday, October 16th to hear about my scan results and to discuss my treatment plan.Tuesday is the day my surgeon will meet with a team of doctors, nurses, and other professionals. Prayers, prayers, prayers.View Thread
Thank you Judy. My doctor has prescribed an anti-anxiety medication. However, I'm hesitant in taking it. I've never liked taking sleeping pills or items even close to a sleeping pill. Although, I probably need something because I contribute every ache and pain to the breast cancer. Like right now I have a slight headache and my thought...has it spread to my brain? Or when my knees hurt...has it spread to my bones? This headache I have is more than likely due to stress and a lack of sleep though. I'll reply back with my scan results and the stage. Not that any of this is good news, but good news would be a low staging number. Again, asking for prayers and thanks bunches for your timeline.
Any other timelines are welcomed. Thanks ~ DebraView Thread
Hi MsMax, I often consider myself living alone although my fifteen year old son lives with me. I also understand your denial. I was just diagnosed a week ago. I'd love to be your support system. We can be each others.View Thread