Jenna, tho' we have been separated from many of our old F2Fs for a variety of reasons, I promise you that Pinkie is a constant...She is always aware of when she is needed and is right on time to pick up the gang and to escort the one in need. Of course, she would never forgive me if I failed to add that she is also very much available to help celebrate happy occasions as well!!
No!! You have not depressed me...Don't you think I share so many of your thoughts and concerns...as do most of the old gang, I am sure!! Hey! I just finished watching one of the newer Superman movies..."The Man Of Steel" ...and even with all his powers, he went thru much more than any of us...'cept he could fly while he was doing so!! As for "pains in the butt," I think many aspects of life prove to be just that...Yes, there also are many sweet moments, but when we are afraid or angry or wanting to rewrite our life story, somehow those prove a tad elusive, right?
Please come here often and vent and share and laugh and give and receive hugs! It makes the journey we all are on so much better! The bad things seems to lessen when we have someone who cares share them...and the good times are so much more delicious to delight in together!!
RE: the "spam gone crazy" quite sometime ago WebMD sort of ruled that our communities were the least important parts of their sites and since that time the moderators have been let go, there are no experts, the Ambassadors have been totally ignored and left out of anything...This has created fertile ground for spammers and etc,. to ply their trade on all our exchanges and boards. Only recently have the Powers that Be seen they might benefit to have someone oversee a bit...So we now have one poor soul who tries her best to keep things clear, but is not here on the weekend (which is apparently known to spammers) and even during the week, she has her hands full to keep things running smoothly. I, too, wonder that WebMD cannot filter these better or hire more individuals to tend to the needs of the communities....I fear that any newbies coming here and seeing all this trash must feel us to be of no value to them at all!!
OK...Now I have vented too! See!!
Take care, my Friend..and come back and "play" more often!!
Hey! If we can't be crazy with one another, we are in deep doo-doo!
Do I forget I have had cancer? Sometimes...and then I hurt somewhere or have a nagging cough or...Well! You get the idea, right?
I find for myself it helps to anticipate the worst-case-scenario, plan on how I would handle that and then when I get any news better than that, I am very relieved!! It is just reassuring to know that even an "unpleasant" surprise is doable! I really hate being blind-sided!!
Luke, Jenna has given you some great advice as well as support.
As far as what your problem is...Let's begin with the fact that you are HUMAN!!! Add to that the fact that you have already walked this road and thought the path you were now on was different than the first, but see now it might only be a spur route! To those issues (as if they weren't enough!) add your very ill love, and then add life itself with all it's ups and downs and speed bumps and detours...See! All you are doing is being "normal"!!
Whatever you do, DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF!! You have not turned your back on God or lost your faith...and He has not abandoned you either!!
Remember om F2F how we would advise each other not to borrow trouble as it had it's own way of finding us without painting a target on our backs???? Well...????? Don't get overly concerned until you have good reason!
But if in the meantime you wish to get angry or to cry or to scream and kick a bucket all around the cellar until you run out of energy, go for it!!!
If you are in the mood for a pity party, plan a doozie and invite all of us...But know when it is time to end that party and get back to living!
While you wait for the results of your tests, etc. please know you will be in our thoughts. And do return to let us know how you are doing. OK?