I just had a stereotactic needle core biopsy yesterday 12/14 and my head is spinning. This has gone way too fast since my follow-up mammo a week ago today 12/8. My routine mammo from last Dec ('10) showed that they wanted me to come back in 6 mos. Since my mammo in June I have developed new calicifications in my left breast. A different spot than what they were watching. I had a biopsy 10 years ago in my right breast for calcifications (which was benign) and this time it's SO different! When I got to the radiology dept of where my biopsy was done yesterday, the doctor and tech were reviewing my films and decided there was another spot next to the one they were originally doing the biopsy on. So I had 2 biopsies done on my left breast. This was the most difficult thing I've had to experience so far.
Not gonna lie, I'm scared! This was NOTHING like the biopsy 10 years ago. This mammo was rated a 4 (BIRAD or something like that?) and I'm not quite sure what that means when I know 5 is the worse. I've been researching this and had to stop reading about it...I was scaring myself even more.
My mind is racing and I want to be around to grow old with my husband. I'm 51. I want to see my son & his GF eventually marry and start their lives. I want to see my daughter & her BF eventually marry and be happy. I want to watch my grandson grow up! I want to enjoy an early retirement at age 55. I'm on a countdown and so can NOT wait for that! I want to stop the clock for a few minutes and say "wait a minute, wth is going on?" This is crazy and it's making me more stressed than ever!
When I saw my new breast doctor (other one retired) he said to not worry and then followed that with "easier said than done" He said if this is cancer, it's highly treatable because it's caught early. I sure the hell hope so! He also said this type of cancer is ONLY caught by mammo...you can't feel it in a breast exam. I have to wait until Monday to find out how the biopsy is.
When I was laying on that table yesterday, the tears started flowing. I was watching my life fly by in an instant and could only think of my husband, kids and grandson! I wish this happened in June instead of now...hard to go thru when it's Christmastime!
I'm gonna keep myself busy and maybe do some baking today...maybe finish my Christmas crafts...maybe write my Christmas cards...maybe wrap a few gifts. I stayed home from work today because this is very uncomfortable and I just couldn't face the office after yesterday.
Thanks for letting me vent and rattle on.............View Thread