I am under house arrest because I died and came back and other interesting disorders. My doc took my keys since I don't like people telling me what to do LOL. My experience will take forever, as I looked for things to do, I started reading posts on here from different times and days but the same issues and neither party got any replies.
We are here to get HELP !!! Maybe one night all who can come with issues they are having can get input from other group members.
I am an exceptionally horrific rapid cycling BP, I am really lucky that my shrink is world renowned on the treatment of this disease and he said I'm either 1 or 2 the worst bipolar he has ever treated.
We tried every single drug on the market but I was always manic. Man the adrenalin would start pumping and I was going to deck someone, I have before. When we reached the end of the line I had to choose between lithium or ECT. I DID NOT want to take lithium. First it destroyed my thyroid, then a few months later I arrived DOA at the ER in total renal failure due to lithium toxcicity , it was downhill from there, I won't bore you, actually you would not believe it.
I don't smoke, drink and have never had an illegal drug in my life.
When I read Ibex's post I thought he felt uncomfortable with his diagnosis,. As a matter of fact a woman who is no longer a patient of my Psychiatrist for obvious reasons. She was married and she could not keep it in her pants, which is one of the side effects of BP. She and her husband were informed of her diagnosis and she ran screaming from his office, it's a lie 5000 times, she went out to the parking lot , took all her clothes off and was running all over the parking lot. Some people are ashamed. Anyway, if you want me to leave the group, let me know.
I think I told you I was having surgery, I'm in the hospital. I'm really upset, all I was trying to say is that I'm someone that understands, no one who does not have this horrific disease can understand.
I take $40,000 worth of medication which has made me gain weight, feel like crap and I'll admit to thinking about ending it on more than one occasion.
You have no idea what a nightmare this whole year has been, I am not allowed out alone, my keys were taken, I don't haven even one friend here but I have found that unless they or a close relative has had it, they do not want to bother.
OMG IBEX , why on earth are you concerned about being bipolar ? Honey bipolar disorder is nothing more than chemistry. I am an ATROCIOUS rapid cycling bipolar, If you saw me you would see a business woman perfectly groomed, not a hair out of place and when I lived in New York a Hell's Angel started messing with me and I took a scalpel out of my purse and shredded the seat on his Harley and then cut his neck. There was not a person alive that would believe it, now you can believe all the stuff I did, at that time I had not been diagnosed. I have been housebound for quite awhile because I was taking lithium and to this day no one knows what happened but I arrived DOA at the ER in total renal failure from the lithium, my life has been a living nightmare since then, so don't worry
All you have to do is go anywhere in NYC and say, hey do you remember a really, super fashionista with long blond hair and huge black shades that had her finger up 99% of the time, we thought she had it surgically made that way LOL