hugs to you and your husband, i had my second miscarriage in march, i almost died during mine..my due date for that precious baby is this week, im pretty broken. i know how you feel honey, it's a horrible, aching, empty , confusing time and they say time heals all wounds..ours are far from healed..not even scabbed over. just trust in your higher power...and slowly things will start to get a little normal again.... you can read my story..Hlvmom10, if you need anything at all or just need to talk , find me on facebook...britt campbell out of siloam springs, ar
Hello everyone. I have been reading comments and discussions for a few days, trying to learn how others deal with painful memories and how to be present now. Here is a little bit of my history...had my DS in July of 2010. A perfect baby boy I felt okay during my pregnancy with him, but I knew that I would have..issues after he was born. I didnt feel that bond that most moms tell about. I knew I loved him, but I didnt want him. So! While batteling severe postpartum his dad got laid off from work!! So I had to return to work ...after planning for 9 months to stay home. I was not ready to return to work, people were so happy and had nothing but nice things to say about how adorable my son was..I didnt care to hear it. So after 3 different types of medication. I have given up on trying to use medication to get better. My Son is now 18 months old and I am still not happy. Please don't think that I havent tried..In september 2010 I had a miscarriage..at 8 weeks i started spotting and my doctor had me come in to " put my mind at ease for the weekend"..yeah a whole lot that did..I had seen my little " DOT" at 6weeks, I saw it's tiny heartbeat..and that day seemed like the worst day of my life. I was really hoping that maybe another pregnancy would " knock it out of me"... it only made it worse. My OB promptly started me on medication..knowing my ongoing history.. I took the meds for a while..but stopped..nothing helps. I don't know how to get out of this..my mom says i need to snap out of it and be a mom. I just don't know how.. Like I said I love my son I know I do. I just would rather not be around him. And then a miscarriage..I feel so Lost.View Thread
I am sorry for what you both are going through. I miscarried in September. And like you, "dot" was measuring 5 weeks when I was supposed to be 8 or 9 weeks. It is hard. Give yourself plenty of time to grieve. I hope you feel better soon.