December 23rd will 1year since I was told our baby had no heart beat. "He measured 10 1/2weeks. I have another son (2 1/2 at the time)so I felt I had to keep it together for him. I cried at night and in the shower. Sent my husband and son off the family Christmas parties with out me. After the new year I said OK get up and move on. Worked pretty well until about thanksgiving. Started getting sadder and sadder. Now only a few weeks until til THAT day. Now I'm starting to regret all of it. I should have asked for the ultrasound pictures, I should have had the baby buried or cremated. I only saw him for a second. Now I feel like I have nothing of him but a broken heart and bad memories I want to honor him in some meaning full way. With our Christmas tree going up I have been playing with creating an ornament of some sort. Has anyone done anything like this?View Thread