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How does one focus on themselves?

Hello! My partner and I have been together for 4 years, and during the 4 years I made...

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Granted, the past few months she's been very open with me concerning her friends. She no...

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Granted, the past few months she's been very open with me concerning her friends. She no longer runs into another room whenever someone calls. She has a password block, but she willingly gave me the pass code (without me asking) and all-in-all she has been very loving shall I say.

My main issue is getting over the past I guess. It would be my mistakes as well as hers and it's pretty bad.

While she was still communicating with this ex-friend of hers (right before she ended our relationship), she ended up breaking her glasses. I gave her the cash (which was a high cost) to go get her some more glasses. Without my knowledge she lied and told everyone that my mother was taking her (when it was really this friend) and even though I was doing what was right and gave her the money to get her some glasses... she yelled at me and treated me badly. When I asked her why she said "I have to come to you to get the money for my glasses, that's why I'm mad."

She even admitted that I never, ever held it over her head that I had to pay for her glasses, but she was just so pissed off that she couldn't buy them herself that she took it all out on me. That was roughly about one year ago, about now it's still affecting me (as I now have an eye glass appointment at the same location this Saturday.)

At this point, I'm getting sick to my stomach thinking about it. At times I feel ridiculously weak, at other times I feel strong and think I can handle the world.

A part of me is upset because... she's not like me. As I stated in a earlier post, I apologized for everything... I literally sat her down looked in her eyes and held her hand while I apologized deeply for everything I did wrong. I told her that I understood why she wouldn't trust me (as I did something again her wishes) which was very disrespectful to her. I even told her that I didn't expect her to forgive me and trust me again for at least another year.

But, when she wronged me and I tried to talk to her about it... all I got was an argument. Or worse... I got a "Well, you hurt me too and I got over it... so get over it." I have yet to actually get an apology from her for what happened and I think that's where a lot of my issues lie. She has never actually admitted that she was wrong.

When I last pointed this out to her she said that it's hard for her to apologize for doing something wrong because during her childhood she was forced to apologize for things she never did. But, that doesn't push away the fact that she hurt me and gives off this attitude of "Get over it!"

At this point... I really don't know what to do. I don't even know how to feel. She has a job interview coming up and it looks like our schedules will be conflicting and we will only see each other about 5 hours each day (not counting when we're in the bed asleep.) A part of me is sad because I won't see her, but on the same token... a part of me is happy because I won't have to see her.

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I do apologize for the late reply, however we've been together for 5 years now. I do...

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GuardSquealer, What I did that was screwed up: I allowed a friend (against my partners'...

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GuardSquealer,
What I did that was screwed up: I allowed a friend (against my partners' wishes) to move into our home as they were currently homeless. We found out (much too late) that this friend was addicted to cocaine. This caused us to lose our town home and vehicle.

Within 6 months of us loosing everything, I ended up getting us into a 3 bedroom home (which is what she really wanted), and two vehicles that were better than the one we had before. I did apologize for everything and informed her that I didn't expect her to trust me again right away. I even told her that I assumed it could take her 1-2 years to even trust me again.

What she did that was screwed up: She told me 10 months after it happened that she forgave me and trusted me completely. Then one month after that she developed a friendship with someone that she refused to let me meet. She would only go out with this friend when I was at work (as she choose to quit working and only go to school). She put a password block on her phone (something she never did). And would tell me of all the bad things this "friend" was saying about me, but never allowed me to meet this "friend" to defend myself. Eventually, she ended the relationship and moved in with her sister. At which time none of them knew about this friend of hers. Turns out that when she was with this "friend" she was lying to them and telling them she was with me.

Once I put my foot down and told her that either she end the friendship (since I wasn't allowed to meet this friend) or all hopes of us getting back together would be null and void... .she did end the friendship. She claims that the friend never wanted to meet me and that this friend believed that it wasn't their place to ever meet me as they were her friend only and not mine.

So, even though she says she wasn't cheating on me with this ex-friend of hers I truly believe otherwise.

Darlyn05,

At this point, I do not trust her as I should. If she had told me that she still hadn't forgiven me and didn't trust me and THEN met the friend that I wasn't allowed to meet... I would be able to handle this better. I can understand and work with you acting out if you haven't forgiven me and don't trust me. But, to tell me that you have forgiven me and do trust me... just to turn around and hurt me caused a very unbearable pain within me. During the time it was going on I lost 30 lbs due to me being unable to eat. I was eating about one orange a day because that was all my stomach could handle. So yes, right now I do not trust her as I should and I do believe this is why I'm unable to focus on my own interest.

We are currently together, and she's made a huge change (for the better). However, I do feel at times that I am jealous of her growth. I feel as if she stepped all over my emotions, and feelings to make herself feel better and help herself grow. Every time I tried to help her, she would do me terribly (EXAMPLE: She said that she wouldn't be able to finish school due to her not being able to get the funds. I took it upon myself to take out a loan for her (in my name) for all the funds she needed. In return she threw the check in my face and told me that she didn't need me trying to run her life for her.) Now, this makes me not want to help her at all... which also makes me feel like crap because I've devoted my life to her. And I feel as if I should continue to try to help her...

And yes... I am very insecure from what happened.

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