There is a thing called a cervix and it separates the vagina from the womb. And there is a placenta that surrounds the baby inside the womb, so there is absolutely no way your penis got through the cervix (which has a tiny opening, btw), bust the placenta and were hitting the baby's head. If anything, you were hitting her cervix, not the baby.View Thread
I want to stay in this marriage for my girls and try to make it work
Those words stuck out like a sore thumb to me. The reason I am picking on those words is because if you don't resolve this problem and continue to stay with him, the girls will suffer. Yes, you may be together but the resentment/tension between you and your husband will be so great that your girls will notice. They will grow up learning yours and your husbands behaviour and thinking this is what's normal, when it's actually very unhealthy. So re-think that statement and ask yourself if you want your girls to end up in a relationship just like yours. How can they possibly know any different?? You have to show them, not pretend (or as you stated a shadow of hurt and anger) either as children can see right through that too. I speak from experience, as a child whose parents were in the same situation as you and your husband.
Counselling is much more affordable than a divorce, is your husband willing to fix the problem he created? By him blaming you (lack of sex) he is not taking responsibility and taking away the validity of your hurt and pain. He needs to actively repair the damage he's done and the first step is placing the blame where it belongs, with him. If he truly loves you he would do anything to repair the damage to this relationship.View Thread
Her son probably already knows. I certianly knew something wasn't right with my parents, but couldn't quite put my finger on it or didn't want to until I later we learned Dad ws a serial cheater. You are a grown woman and I would like you re-evlauate your statement "I do have great self-esteem" because what you are doing screams the exact opposite. Why settle for someone else's man when you can go find your own, why do you not feel worthy of a loving realtionship or someone who will only give their heart to you? He knows you are an easy lay for him and he knows you can't or won't tell him no even though you know it is wrong.View Thread