Oh, do I ever know what you mean. I felt that many times in my life. Your statement " I need to start packing. I need to get my life organized! But I feel frozen. Stuck" was the statement that I related to.
Like the other post you got, keeping the goals simple seems a good advice. When I was "stuck" and not being to do anything was helpful to me was.....get a pad of paper, or a few pieces of paper and write, write things. Like a "to do" lists that you can check out. Simple things to do are helpful. Don't start doing a big chore. Every day, do a simple task and check it off of the list. That helped me alot when I couldn't do anything.View Thread
I think I have mostly anxiety than depression even though I have some days are not the best but I contribute it to anxiety and bipolar. However I did have history of both, with many years on different meds and life circumstances. Right now I am taking my synthroid pills, which I had it since childhood (i get tested a few times a year and the labs are fine) and I take Ativan (Lorezepam is generic name) for many years and I think that after some years taking the same thing, the effects don't work anymore, as least what I think. I don't have sleeping pills at this time because the effects wore down and I didnt like side effects; which most of us know that most depression meds/or tranquilizers has side of effect of weight gain. I just take the Ativan at night just for the purpose of getting a peaceful sleep (my doc told me it's good for that).
Since I had it so long, I am afraid that it's not keeping me sleep all night and I don't want to ask the doc for any kind of sleeping pill. I thought i could get any over-the pill for the sleep, but don't know what's the best one. Another thing, my son drives to the doc because I don't drive and he get my meds that I. I don't want him to know I am taking another kind of pill and cause him to worry. I thought i could try the Melatonin and it doesn't work on me. Does anyone take any over-the-counter pills for sleep..??
First of all I read all the literature about Zyprexa (olanzapine) is generic term is for antisphyotic and all the side effects associated. Not one word mentioned about sleeping aid. I am currently taking Ativan for anxiety and doctor told me along time ago that I can take my Ativan at bedtime for sleeping. I never take it during the day. The effects wore off I believe but lately it seems a long time to fall asleep. I asked him if he can raise the dose of Ativan, instead he prescribed Zyprexa which I disagree with that choice of med for sleep.View Thread
Thanks for the suggestions to everyone about getting my late husband's social secutiy. I looked under verterans page and the stipulations to qualify was not worth it. However I went to coial secuity with my son (he's the one handling everything) and since I have speech aphasia it was a must. We had the sweetest lady waiting on us and answered her questions while she was sitting in front of her computer. She had the wrong calculations and I was to rejoice about the added income, till she came back at said she figured everything wrong. Oh well, her first calculations would have yielded another 200 dollars by month because of his SS. Me and my son were going to the extra money till she came back.
I hate all those red tape things with SS and the qualifications with retirements and such. The bottom story is: she came back with the news that because he took social security at 62 instead of 66, it made a difference. If he had waited till 66 to retire, I would have gotten more. me and my late husband only chatted a few times since our separation in 2005, I didnt know any of his business, nor did I wanted it. His reasons for getting social secuirty were his reasons, I didnt wanted to judge. We separated on good terms. Since his SS was only 30 more a month than I am getting, seriously. That will be the added money I will get, oh well. I wasnt looking for anything. But my son, whos a budget fiend and money person (he's a math teacher) was kinda dismayed at the news. What the heck, my husband died of cancer and I didnt know when it started. All my son said to me when we driving home. was " so he screwed you again". I thought that was bad for him to say. See, all my family thinks he left me and went to another state. That is so not true...I didnt want to move to another state. My family blames him for everything that happen to me since.
I really am so glad for you, you great steps to combat depression. I had bouts of depression and anxiety through the years and its the hardest thing to committ yourself and say that you have to do something positive to get out of the rut. I had many meds for depression and anxiety, but dont ask which ones since I tried alot over the years and my memory isnt the best. . I do take synthroid for thyroid (that pill is a must, have to take it rest of my life), also I am taking Ativan for anxiety and thats it. I did have topamax and I discussed with Dr. that it wasnt do anything for me anymore.
I have a good feeling after exercising, it releases great endorphins, that statement is true when you hear about the diet and fitness people on tv. I go to the gymn in the apartments here. I switch from treadmill to elliptical and I have a great DVD at home. what machine do you like the most, treadmill or elliptical..?? I am so glad that you took strides to conquer the beast.
I have to admit that I do love reality shows at night, not all of them, What can I say, live alone with 2 cute cats so whats wrong with guilty pleasures. Anyway, I watch ET and E news fathfuly and the latest news about the former Bachelor cast member (Gia) really got me upset. She was just gorgeous and had everything going for her. I was rooting for her to win that season. Its very troubling and everytime I hear reasons or hear some bit news from E news about people that knew her. I guess I cant relate to have a longing to be with someone with the rest of your life. Also, insecurities that someone could have, which was one the reasons. I was married 13 years and we had tough times and we separated in 2005. I never wanted to meet another man, seriously. I am totally content with myself, although I had years with depression even with marrried. I dont know, I guess some people need a special person in their life or theyre not fully whole. What is everyone's take on it. Would you rather have a partner for life or being alone after having rocky relationships with spouse...??
I could call social security but you know how they work, you can never to speak anyone or on hold forever. Also, any sites I went to about social secuity, you have sort through pages. That's why I am pleading here to get a answer to my question. I get SSDI every for my disabilty, speech aphasia stemming from brain injury. I am 57 now and was married 13 years and then we separated in 2005. He moved to another state and he started to get sick in big way with cancer. He passed away in January and it still hurts cause we will still chatting all the while we were separated. my question is would i be able get his Social Security because he was over 63 and was retired. He was also a veteran and was getting a stipen from VA. Thank for in advance. Any help would be greatly appreciated.
That is really sad that your own husband won't help you and get you help. You mentioned that he and the kids play games with you. What games are you talking about..??. Sometimes the people in your family dont understand depression unless they aware of it. Can you sit your husband explain how you are feeling and get therapy before you crack-up about the things are effecting you. I think there are crisis numbers out there that you can call and talk to someone. They will advise you the places or people you can get help.
I had depression for 10 yrs or so, but those combination of meds I never had. Are they in the same family..?? I had different meds during the depression but I cant recall all of them. Sometimes its circumstances that makes us depression. The last meds I was prescribed was Topamax and ativan for anxiety. I took those for 4 years straight and when I visited the doc I asked If we can wean off of topamax cause I thought after time, they lose their effect..so I thought. I still take my ativan, I wont stop that one because I only take at bedtime to helps out with sleeping. I have not had depression episodes for a long time. Of course, I can get a off day where I feel the best, buts that most people. What helps me is to think to myself....there are alot of people that are less fortunate than I, and be greatful of what I have. I hope this helps somewhat.
What kind of side effects did you get from withdrawal of pain meds.??. I saw a program about people so addicted to them and it's very hard to stop. Myself, I dont take them ever but once when I had a bad ear ache. I probably took one or two from the bottle. The bottle is still in my cabinet. I took depression meds for many years, different ones but I be scared to ever take pain meds for the reasons you mentioned. If you have the fear of taking them again, remind yourself of how terrible the side effects of withdrawal. Probably that alone would keep from taking them.