All I can say is that if you can, try to be her advocate as far as getting help for her depression. Some people don't want help, or don't want someone else stepping in. But if you can, go with her to her doctor visits, and if she is not being heard by her doc as far as medications not working, then speak up for her. Is she getting counseling I hope?View Thread
Probably exercise can be bad occasionally, if your body really is exhausted and just needs sleep then exercising might not be the right choice in that moment. Maybe you could try toning your runs down to an easy jog or a brisk walk and see if that helps?View Thread
Hi D, I haven't been on here in a long time but I just wanted to say it's nice to see a familiar face. Hello to C and Jaws and anyone else who remembers me. Like your poem! Glad to see you're still writing.View Thread
Jaws, cutting is something many people do to cope with their intense mental/emotional pain. You shouldn't feel so alone in it, there are obviously people who understand you and know just what you mean when you talk about it. I'm sorry you are feeling like you need to do it though. I only had one experience trying to cut myself and it was while I was going through withdrawals from Pristiq. I felt extremely numb emotionally during that time and felt that if I could inflict some pain, I might "feel" something. Emotionally, I guess. Although I am a wuss when it comes to pain so I never broke the skin. I tried a couple different knives thinking if it was sharper it might not hurt as much making the cut. I told my husband about it later and felt deeply ashamed. I know that's not the same kind of experience as people who do cutting regularly, but I guess it gave me a tiny glimpse into why some people might do it.View Thread
I've totally been there. Even very recently. I just started back on my antidepressants so it's been a lot better in the last few days. But when I'm depressed, I get to feeling like my toddler is just an inconvenience. He makes me irritated with any little thing that requires energy from me when I'm that way. A spilled glass of milk makes me so angry when normally I could handle it and we'd clean it up together. When I'm depressed I don't want to go anywhere or do anything with him, I just want him to watch TV and leave me alone. It's not you, per se, it's the depression talking at those times. Have you seen your doctor about it or considered any counseling or therapy? I hope you can find your sunbreak in the storm!View Thread
I'll be MIA again here as I and the little guy will be leaving to go over the road with my husband on this next trip he makes. He's headed this time for Nashville, TN. We leave day after tomorrow! Short notice so I'll be a packing flurry tomorrow. Take care everyone! Be back in a week and a half to two weeks.View Thread
Hi friends, how is everyone? Just popping in so you all don't worry about me. Still pregnant, got to see the heartbeat on ultrasound last Thursday. I still have a hard time being positive about this one, I think that's just going to be the way it is. There's plenty of time to get excited after I see little one's face after birth.
I'm still kinda feeling down in the dumps most of the time. I think it's #1 pregnancy hormones, and #2 having to reduce the Wellbutrin to once a day instead of twice.
I almost feel like maybe I should lower the wellbutrin even more, because I still get little runs of tachycardia and feeling breathless from time to time. But I know that would be bad for me emotionally.
I know they could always try me on a new med, but I don't want to be messing with meds when I'm in my 1st trimester...heck I don't want to mess with them at all. But I guess it's a risk vs. reward thing? I'm just scared of hurting a growing baby. It's not too bad, I think I'm just going to leave it as is. We'll see. I'll talk to my PCP about it next time I see her.
I feel bad for my son because I'm kinda reverting back to being a bump on a log again, from being so tired and being queasy all day, but also feeling a little bit like this is depression too, with wanting to withdraw and not feeling like calling friends. I hear pregnancy hormones mess with your serotonin too, isn't that lovely?
Oh well, sorry to complain! Things are going ok otherwise. DH started driving over the road trucking again, so I'm lonely too. But after he gets back, the kiddo and I are going with him, so I hope that goes well cause I don't want to be without him that long anymore.