I am so sorry to hear how you are struggling, but so glad you found us to talk about how you are feeling and so proud of you for reaching out for help!
It's good to know you have an interest in music. Does your college have any classes, clubs, bands, choirs, drama/musical groups you could join in addition to your regular classes? May be a nice diversion and fun to participate in something you enjoy.
Talk with your parents and your sister again, print or write what you have written here. They may not know how bad you are feeling. Please check with your college to see if they have a therapist or counselor you can talk with? Please make an appointment with your medical doctor, they may be able to help.
To talk with someone over the phone, check out this Crisis Assistance link. The Hopeline has a Program link for students and a Get Help Now link for teen to teen peer counseling.
Please check back in to let us know how you are doing, ElizabethView Thread
Phone numbers/phone trees/trying to get the right person to help/trying to get help - it sounds like it continues to be overwhelming and frustrating. I am glad you continue to look for help and answers though.
Can you call your pdoc and ask someone in his office to help you by "helping you captain your ship"? Maybe sit down and go over your meds, your diagnosis and what help is available for you.
Call a crisis line to see if they have someone in your area and most important to keep yourself safe!
We do care and want to help. We will keep brainstorming for you!
Check in to let us know how you are doing. Take care of yourself deasertrose, ElizabethView Thread
Just wanted to pop in so your question will not get lost in previous discussions. Our members and expert will notice it little easier if it is a separate discussion.
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Please know you are not responsible for the health and well-being of those around you, especially if they are not working to help themselves. It is selfish of them to expect you to care for them when they will not go to the doctor and find out what's going on.
I am glad you are reaching out and posting. I am proud of you and hope this is a way to vent and keep yourself safe.
I hope you got a good night's sleep, ElizabethView Thread
Hopefully you have talked with your doctor and have a plan to continue or taper your meds. As others have explained it may be dangerous to stop taking your meds and in the long run cost you much more.
In addition to talking with your doctor, pharmacist, and drug companies, here is a post that offers information for free and/or low cost care. Be sure to scroll down to the last response to see additions and updates to some of the websites.
Nicotine withdrawal, marriage, mom issues - you have a lot going on in addition to the daily stuff of life.
Just a suggestion - Google Premarital Counseling Questions. Print out a few and just for fun sit down with your finance to go over some and spark communication. If you guys can identify some issues then suggest counseling. My husband and I went through counseling and it was an eye opener. We learned some great tools for communication.
We are so sorry to hear you are going through so much, it certainly does sound like you need to have questions answered and your history reviewed.
Please reach out to a professional to help you with your past and also how to manage your relationship with your mother. You may be able to network with one of numbers listed on our crisis assistance link to find out information about some of your specific questions.
Have you been able to get a copy of your medical and hospital records?
Take care and please keep us posted about how you are doing, ElizabethView Thread