Hi anon and welcome - I'm so glad you are seeing a doctor! Please check back in and let us know that you are safe and getting treatment - whatever that might be after you talk to your doc. I'm glad that your spouse and parents are in the loop - suffering alone is worse, IMO. Unfortunately, getting off meds without consulting a doctor can have pretty severe effects - don't do that again, OK?
Please don't worry about posts being long - typing out thoughts and feelings can be very helpful. It's often hard to verbalize depression and it's symptoms. I frequently encourage members to print out posts to take to a doctor, therapist or family member to get help.
I'd like to point you towards some resources if you are in immediate need. Crisis Resources Links . There are some phone numbers where you can talk to someone immediately to keep yourself safe.
YES. You are not alone but it can get better! "Thinking positive" is, unfortunately, not the answer for one who is suffering from depression and well-meaning folks just don't get it. And I know what you mean by being OK when you're actually engaged in an activity but feeling empty after.
I hear that you have some support with a therapist but it sounds like you haven't found the right doctor/meds. The right medication/combination of meds could be out there but you need to find the right doc to work with. And a psychiatrist whose diagnosis is "perfectly normal"? Ummm.....next!
You're a wife, mother, volunteer, employee and many other things but you're so hard on yourself! You're not worthless or selfish and I hope that you can find support and answers by reaching out here. Have you spoken to your husband about how you feel and what you are facing?
You are in a very difficult place right now. I encourage you to print out this discussion and take it to your doctor. If you're not able to be honest with words, let your writing be your voice! There IS help out there and you CAN feel as good as you are pretending!
Please drink some water, have a healthy snack and pick up the phone to speak with your doctor. Also, I'd like to point you towards some crisis resources where you can get an immediate person on the phone if you feel that you are in danger of hurting yourself: Crisis Resources
Please post and let us know that you are safe and that you're reaching out for help - (((hugs))) -
I'm so sorry to hear that depression has touched your life. Unfortunately, this is a very common topic here. We have a discussion "living with a depressed husband " that was started 4 years ago and continues to get comments from those looking for support. You might want to look through that so that you know you are NOT alone!
A few questions - is your spouse currently seeking therapy or taking any medication to manage depression? Has he/she been diagnosed by a medical professional? Have you spoken to a therapist or counselor for support? Are you able to talk to your spouse about their depression?
Sorry to ask so many questions but I'm trying to find out what your situation is so I can point you to some resources! The article below might have some information you can find useful: Helping Friends and Loved Ones with Depression
Please let us know a few more details and (((hugs))) to you during this difficult time!
I know you're not alone in your feeling towards the holiday season Jeune1! Big (((HUG))) to you & I hope you can find some fun and joy during the final weeks of 2012.
I'm enjoying seeing reports of holiday traditions that I will NEVER participate in. A family of 5 in Oklahoma (where I'm from) has been camping outside of a Best Buy since Sunday so they can be 1st in line for Black Friday deals. NO THANK YOU! Also, I've been watching the lines at the airport of folks trying to travel today. Again, no thanks!
Wishing you and everyone in this community a happy, healthy, low-stress Thanksgiving with all the fixin's.
Welcome Anon! I'm glad you found us and were able to express all of the challenges you are facing. I do think that a medication adjustment could help increase your energy and unfreeze some of the paralyzed feelings that you have. I encourage you to also reach out off-line to find more support - could you return to the counselor you saw before? Or find a new therapist?
And chronic pain is horrible - it's enough to make the most well-adjusted and upbeat person beat into the ground! We have some pain management communities here with excellent experts where you might be able to get some additional information, resources and support. Click the links below if interested: Fibromyalgia Community , Back Pain Community , Pain Management Community .
Try not to be so hard on yourself because you should know what to do or you're unable to logically think and problem solve. That is what depression does - it robs us of our ability to handle parts of day-to-day living that used to be easy peasy!
I know you can get to a better place - please check on therapy and a medication adjustment ASAP. And please check back in here so we know you are safe - (((HUGS)))
(((HUGS))) to you Anon! You ARE NOT A LOSER! (that was me shouting to you with support and care!)
It sounds like you are facing a very, very difficult time but you can come through this! I'd like to you point you towards some crisis resources. PLEASE keep yourself safe and reach out if you feel that you are in danger of hurting yourself: Crisis Assistant Resources
I also feel that conquering the morning puts me on track for a better day. Lack of energy is absolutely a symptom of depression. Please call your doctor and see if you can get your meds adjusted. Hopefully your energy will come back and your anxiety will lessen.
I'll check some resources in your area and post later - hopefully you can find something that interests you.
But, I urge you to call your doc about your meds first thing, please - keep checking back in and ((hugs))